Waiting Game

Does anyone like waiting?

It could be a time of anticipation, anxiety, fear or sadness.

I try to go to appointments early if I can, I do not like to keep people waiting for me.

But I noticed, sometimes when I get put into situations that I am forced to wait longer than I anticipated…I get a little pissed off..this is generally because I have already read all my Webtoons for the day…listened to my podcasts and generally have seen all the cat videos on facebook…

I get so angry waiting for the person to finally come….that sometimes I don’t even want to meet them anymore. LOL.

Maybe it’s me, I like everything to be done on time. I can’t stand those last minute meetings and where there is no time set in stone. I need details. I need detailed details. I need you to let me know in advance if you are going to be late and how late you will be. Otherwise I’ll get angry.

Does this resonate with anyone else?

Online Live Interviews

Just finished a live online interview which is I guess the third and final step in the application process.

Was super nervous the whole day… just pacing back and forth and last minute watching all these videos on interview skills.

Some of the questions they asked were the ones I sort of prepared for, except they gave they scenarios.

They asked me why do you want to work at ______ Health and What do you know about the Pharmacy Residency Program. No matter how much I practiced this, I still stumbled and fell.

Then they gave me some case scenarios:

  1. If you got given some negative feedback, how would you go about addressing the feedback that they gave?

I honestly thought about what I would have done in a real case scenario..reflect and also think about how I can improve in the future. I would also keep doing what I have done well, but work on what I can do better.

     2. How would you prioritise your time if you had two different presentations to do, a research project, a new rotation, and also you best-friends wedding at the end of your residency program?

TBH I couldn’t really hear the whole question clearly..so there may or may not be a research question added into that mix. Again, I didn’t lie and literally told them what I do in real life, write it in my journal..and plan my time around those deadlines. I also said that I wouldn’t cancel on my best friends because work life balance is important.

3. Imagine that you have got some feedback from your preceptor about your research assignment and you have emailed him for some feedback. However, he does not reply within 3 weeks…you bump into him and ask if he has seen your email. He says he has been really busy lately and told you to relax because the project isn’t due for ages.

Again, this is a familiar situation I have been in before…and I answered honestly once again. I would try to think of opportunities outside the box, i.e. asking a colleague of his for help or looking to see if I can fix it myself. Alternatively, I would try to schedule some time with him, i.e. over lunch or after work for 15 minutes. I said it would be respectful of their time and their duties…But I guess I should have reminded them of their responsibilities as a preceptor.

omg I forgot the last question….there was four tho..

Then I asked them a question…”What kind of person are you hiring?”

Felt dumb to ask that too..lol since I should know..

They wanted to hire someone that was enthusiastic, shows excellence, hard-working, and adaptable to change.

They then asked me about my experience in pharmacy so far and whether or not I would be willing to move to Melbourne. If I am going for the interview, I guess?!!?

Apparently for external applicants, like myself..We will have a 2 week orientation to the hospital in mid August..then the residency starts in September :O… So still lots of time to prepare if I needed to move..which is good.

They will get back to all the applicants either at the end of this week or the start of next week. Referee checks will be conducted by that time aswell.

Fingers crossed!

 

p.s. I asked them how they were coping with the resurgence of Covid-19 cases in Melbourne, not sure if appropriate… ><“

Do as I say but not as I do

You’ve heard that statement, practice what you preach.

But how many leaders actually follow their own advice?

I mean I understand nobody is perfect 100% of the time.

But, doesn’t it suck if you have a leader who likes to tell others what to do, except won’t follow their own advice?

It is like they are immune to the rules of the company.

Hypocritical describes it I suppose.

There are no perfect leaders, but some are better than others…who work harder than they need to.

And some who you don’t want to listen to what they say or do, like Mr Trump.

Quiet Before the Storm

After six months of working 6-7 days a week. Suddenly I am back to one day a week.

Scary. What should I do with all this spare time?

Of course I need to job hunt and keep doing interviews.

But, still so much time.

So I have a few things I am thinking to work on or do during this time.

  1. Being able to cook edible, easy, and semi-healthy meals for myself.
  2. Make sure I am up to date with my CPD (Continuing Professional Development) points for this year! We need to complete 40 CPD points as a year as a pharmacist.
  3. Aim to update daily with quality on this blog! This will include scheduled and unscheduled posts.
  4. Start doing recorded live interviews for my (almost forgotten) podcast! I have a few ideas of regular everyday people that I want to interview for my podcast.
  5. Work out 4 times a week and lose that post-covid 19 fat T_T!!
  6. Catch up with my nephew, sister, aunty, and uncle!
  7. Try to grow something. Flowers, cucumber, Carrot. Anything. Except mold. No Mold please.
  8. Think and plan my goals for the rest of the year and next year. I.e. financial goals, Shares goals, and etc.
  9. Finally have some time to clear out the junk in the kitchen, bathroom, and do I even want to touch the living room?!
  10. Get in some solid restful sleep.  CHILLAX. Destress and hopefully my resting heart rate will go back down to ~60  instead of the 72 it is now 😦

 

Here’s hoping that I will make the most of the time I have between now and my next job… 🙂

Last Day

Last days are so awkward.

There is a swirl of emotions.

Happiness. Sadness. Regret. Anxiety.

There are people that you may never see again.

There are some you want to say Good Riddance forever to

Then there are others that you want to hold onto to.

So many memories are made…both the good and the bad.

But, you appreciated the journey.

You learnt something new.

You grew a bit as a person and as an adult.

And you are one step closer to where you might want to go.

You’ll miss it, but you don’t know if you would go back given the chance.

But maybe you will have the opportunity one day.

Who knows?

You gotta sometimes Cheer yourself on

 

When the going gets tough and there doesn’t feel like there is anyone in the same boat as you…Sometimes you have to be your own cheerleader.

Maybe it has something to do with positive thinking and mindset, may be it has something to do with loving yourself.

You can do this and you can say I believe in me.

Doing online Interviews

Had my first automated online interview about two weeks ago.. it was bizarre. I had to pretend it was like a proper job interview…make up, hair, clothes…and I had to find a place that I would be uninterrupted in my house and answer some difficult questions. I set up my laptop on the desk on top of a few text books so that it would become almost eye level.

It was pretty strange…there was a few practice questions that you could practice with and I spent a good half an hour doing them again and again..because you are able to review the video and every time I listened to myself I was like damn why did I do that?

Luckily for the real thing, there was no chance to do it again and again…otherwise I would be there ALLLL day. There was a chance to view the video recordings of yourself at the end…of course I did not choose to watch myself. Too cringe worthy.

But anyways, I found out that I have somehow made it to the second stage with a live video interview next week..that will be another first.

How does one shake hands across the net? Do you just wave? Or do you still do that awkward elbow greeting?

Wish me luck! I will update on that experience next week…

Work Addicted

I just spent like almost an hour researching something for someone I don’t know in another town, which has nothing to do with me and this is after I have had dinner and am at home. I think I have a problem switching off work.

I work in a mental health hospital dispensary, yet I get phone calls from around South Australia from people asking for advice about psychotropic medications. I would just like to clarify I am not a medication expert hot line, there are people who are paid simply to answer these medication information questions.

Yes, I might know a bit more about antipsychotics and other psychotropic medications than some pharmacists, but I am by no way close to a specialist of any kind in mental health.

When asked a question I don’t know, I get obsessed with trying to finding the answer and unfortunately there isn’t an answer as it was with this case.

I’ve just come off from 3 days of being on-call and being asked all sorts of questions that put me outside my comfort zone and made me think on my feet… So I guess an email about a question relating to long-acting anti-psychotics didn’t seem too bad at first. But unfortunately, I am not paid to just answer people’s questions all day and hence, I did it at home…not good, but at least I learnt a ton lot about antipyschotics!! Too bad it’s my last week at this mental health hospital.

Sometimes I wonder why I try so hard…

*lifts up glass of milk*. Cheers to new chapters.

Planes

Planes remind me of freedom, of travel, of excitement.

There are fewer planes in the sky now because of the global pandemic that is happening.

Not knowing when we can go overseas safely again is a sobering thought.

How nice it would be to fly like a bird in the sky.

When you are at home, it feels like you are caged in…locked up…safe..but your soul is deteriorating slowly.

How sick should you be before you take a sick day?

I woke up yesterday after a really really bad night of sleep. I definitely slept weirdly and had the start of what might have been in a really bad migraine. I took one of my new migraine tablets and waited. I would try brave the workday..my contract was going to finish soon, taking another sickie before my last week would look bad right? I don’t want to burn any bridges, in case I get another contract in the future.

The thought did cross my mind, maybe I should call in sick.. ? Or shouldn’t I? 

It was make or break. In the past, I have tried going to work despite having a bad migraine with nausea…only then to have to go home and vomit the living daylights out of me. Some days, I take some meds and try to do my job with a headache or sickness…

However, in the case of yesterday, with the new medication seemed to help and I managed to make it through the WHOLE workday mostly unaffected. I was a bit tired and a bit lethargic, but who wouldn’t be after a six-day working week?

Some people I know take a ‘sickie’ whenever they feel like they want to go to work, and they actually are perfectly fine to go to work…but others like to ‘save’ their sick days for days where they actually really really do feel unwell. I don’t think either of these options is ideal. If you save all you sick days for a rainy day and force yourself to go to work, that can’t be good for you or the company…sick days are there for you when you need it. However, taking sick days to have fun, is just something that doesn’t sit right with me…I would probably just feel guilty all day and try to make sure I don’t post anything on social media LOL. Some workplaces will require a sick certificate for every single day of sick leave taken and others might be only needed when it falls on Mondays and Fridays before or after a public holiday. etc.

 

But it would be interesting to hear about other people’s opinions on “how sick do you have to be to take a sick day?’

Being ‘Oncall’

This weekend, it’s my first time being the Oncall pharmacist for a large hospital that I used to work for.. but since then I have been rotated to another site.@@. Trying to organise getting the on-call gear to get to me was a feat in itself. I don’t know much about booking couriers or who to contact about the on-call stuff. It was also a feat trying to test the laptop gear and make sure it was connected to the network at work before I took it home. I’ve never used VPN before and holy moly is it kinda cool…but super slow and the screen is TINYYY..

For me, the anxiety of thinking about being on-call seems like more of a nightmare than actually being on-call…so far anyway.

Yesterday I got one call so far asking for something that they should have ordered during business hours. Then today I received a call from an intern cover doctor asking about vancomycin dosing… @_@ which is so complicated and my first time looking into it.

I think personally, being on-call is literally taking the stress from work home with you and everywhere you go. Basically, you have to think about work 24/7 while on call. You never know when they will call and what they will call about. Every time you go out you have to bring all the stuff with you and be on alert for the dreaded beeps from the pager or the phone ringing. The pager went off during my shower today and my heart sank, I couldn’t even enjoy my shower… 😦

I woke up with a stiff and painful neck this morning 😦 I don’t think I got good sleep…worried that I would be called in the middle of the night…

So far I’ve been a bit disgusted with the bag. It’s sooo messy..stuff is just everywhere.. I bought some plastic ziplock bags to put the different chargers, internet dongle, and parking permit cards into. I have also replaced the screen cover of the iphone with a new tempered glass screen cover I had lying around (can I claim that on my tax?)..I also might clean up the folder a bit…and see if I have a spare notebook lying around. It just looks so unloved.

This is my oncall experience so far… tmoro will be another challenge! I am will still be on-call while I am working at my second job. Fingers crossed no-one contacts me during work….eek… Shall update on my endavours with more stories surely. Oh, and someone please remind me to put this on my resume, thanks.

Financial Health Check

I’ve been listening to a bit too many podcasts about money lately…as you can probably tell. I was listening to one particular podcast where someone on the show was making a website based on getting you better deals by allowing you to compare side by side what the different banks were offering in terms of things like term deposits, loans, etc. I can’t believe how much time it saves! So today, post work I have set about moving some money I have been saving up for my future house deposit and put into a 3 month term deposit…I highly doubt I will be able to purchase a house within the next 3 months, so better to maximise the interest I can get while it is in the bank.

I have a second account in which I have some emergency funds that I can use for spending, because I don’t want to lock away all my money in a fixed term deposit. I will use this money for things like unexpected expenses I may incur or for expensive things like specialist appointments… *Sad face*.

I wish I had done this earlier! It takes a lot of time though, trying to sort out your finances. As I also have multiple bank accounts across three different banks and so manyy bank cards…it’s hard to keep track of how much money I actually do have…xD yet great in a way, because unseen and forgotten money means I spend less!! I also have to remember to keep checking up on my stocks and to keep an eye out for good prices..and to remember to keep growing my rather small portfolio.

I still have much to look in terms of the superannuation..I think I will look further into it after I finish up my current contract…as I will have to combine that super with my other super account…somehow…

So many things to think about as an adult…who knew looking at your financial health was so important and took so much time? *sad face* BUT in the end, if you look after your finances, it will look after you in the future. *happy face* (hopefully).

Being in Debt forever :(

Since starting university back in 2009…I have accrued a massive and ever growing student debt… Australia is good in a way, that people with low income can still be able to go to University and to do further study. But, as a kid, no one told me how expensive it would be to finish a course… let alone for someone like me who jumped around doing three different courses over the first 2 years, because how are you supposed to know what you want to do when you are at a ripe age of 18?

While it is great that we can borrow the money for our student debt, but it is a bit depressing to see how much money we owe to the government and the increasing interest that is charged on it.

When I was younger, I did not think much about the debt…but now that I have become more interested in my financial position, I realised I still have this massive 50k unpaid student debt…and each year they are charging another 2k worth of interest….!! *EEK*

But, do I really want to use all my savings to pay for my student debt? Not really…I need that money now…but sadly I foresee that debt is going to be there for the long term. 😦

Was it worth accruing that massive debt for the benefits from studying to become a registered pharmacist? I am not sure really. =s

The Australian government will automatically deduct payments from our salaries once our income reaches a certain threshold…However, until recently, my income has been lower than that amount…I wonder how long until I can be debt free? To be honest, even though I have paid off some of it this year, the interest that keeps getting added to it means that the payments aren’t even touching it :(.

Being able to Eat out again

Don’t mean to brag or anything, but in South Australia, as I have mentioned before, things are almost back to normal. For the first time since forever, I dined in at an actual restaurant and had table service and all! The food was the best I have had this year, hands down. Maybe, it’s because all I have been having is takeaway and food court style foods…it’s the small things in life you didn’t know you will miss until it’s gone.

Shopping centres are open once again and it was filled to the brim with people. Sure, there was still reminders to social distance in the shops and on escalators. But it is hard to do when there is soo many people around. We still aren’t allowed to dine in at the food courts, so they have banned people from sitting on the tables and chairs, however there were groups of people sitting and eating on the floor….I think that’s even more unhygienic…but yeah.. lol… Who would imagined that Australians would be sitting on the floor of a food court eating?!?!

As there is still a limit to how many people can dine in at a restaurant, my friends and I put our name and number down at the restaurant we wanted to go to and walked around the shopping centre until they called us to say the table was ready.

Felt like a century ago since we were able to meet up, eat together, and shop together.

Super grateful.

Financially Literate

Lately, I have been doing some adult learning (imo). I have been trying to learn more about money through various podcasts on money. AND BOY is there a lot of things I don’t know… As a young one, I have never been that interested in money and my parents did not teach me much about it, except that it was precious and we didn’t have much. *sad face*

What even is Super?? How does it even work??

Through the last year and a bit, I have encountered terms like Salary Sacrifice, Life Insurance, Bonds, ETFS, mortage brokers, credit scores, and Stocks. I think I’ve grown up a bit now that I have become interested in money, or should I say in the fancy adult word, finance.

Studying in the health sector for 5 years has allowed me to become health literate, maybe a bit too much (those wrong self-diagnoses LOL). I did not understand why some people had poor health literacy and make such bad health decisions (every 1st generation child of a migrant would understand). I have always thought that was sufficient enough to keep me healthy and sustain me through life. However, I have only just realised I am seriously financially illiterate (and many of my friends are too)! I have never really did any check up on my money and just thought putting in the bank and getting a little interest was enough to sustain me for life. LOL.

I have realised, that if you want to look after your finances well, you need to take some time and think about what your saving goals you are aiming for and to make a budget (of some sort). You need to think about where you want to invest your money, because leaving it in the bank, while it is safe, it typically has low interest rates, and hence low returns.

Your super fund is basically your retirement fund, as a young kid in my first job, I always scowled at how money from my pay went into this “SUPER” fund that I couldn’t access until I was like 67. BLEH. What if I didn’t even live to that ripe age? Gimme my money now! Is what I probably thought. But, when I am old and wrinkly, and when I get to receive that money in my fund, hopefully I will be able to thank my younger self for working so damn hard for all those years to build a better retirement future. I don’t really know how supers work, but in my limited understanding I think they use your money and a good company hopefully will use it to invest and grow the super. However, for those with multiple super accounts, they might be paying a whole bunch of fees that they are unaware of.

There is still much to learn about money and finance and surprisingly, it is becoming more interesting and appealing to learn about money. $$

I ask my self, Have I stepped another step towards this holy adulthood? As I sit on a chair wearing my snoopy PJs and thinking about how it would be great to not go to work tomorrow. *Sad face*