Failing Adulting

This week has been a fail week for me…I have failed as an adult.

I have not washed my dishes all week..My laundry is everywhere and I have no clean clothes anywhere..I am eating shrimp crackers and ice cream every day for dinner.

The garbage is piling up and there is mould growing in my organic bin.

My whole room is a mess and things are everywhere…There is no fresh food in my fridge and it’s looking pretty bare at the moment..

I haven’t cooked in forever and the grapes in my fridge are rotting.

I am so tired and I have no energy to clean..I just wanna… order take away…eat out..and go play. I don’t want this adulting life….If only someone was there to cook and clean for me.. xD

On a side note, the covid vaccines has reached Australia and my workplace will be vaccinating us soon..

On another side note, I have new neighbours who LOVE shouting on the top of the lungs and walking up and down all night.

They also play DOOF DOOF music at MIDNIGHT…

And I know my real estate agent will not do anything. 😦

But I guess it will not hurt to send an email….

Freedom

Freedom again.. so we finished our five day lock down on Thursday as promised by our prime minister. The taste of freedom is both exhilarating and also feels foreign, almost wrong… going in and out of lockdowns makes you feel on the edge… when will the next one be? Do you enjoy your freedom now and pay the consequences later? What if you go to a hotspot accidentally?

The constant anxiety of not knowing is both scary and yet exciting times to be in.

I wish I could be part of the Covid Vaccination team… but I am not sure.. I am still undergoing my residency training now and I am not sure how it would work..

I am glad that a vaccine is out, I wonder how the world is going to look like once we are vaccinated. Is social distancing here to stay?

Melbourne lockdown #3

Yesterday afternoon, we were all told that at midnight the entire state of Victoria will be plunged back to a Stage Four lockdown for five days. This was in response to another leak of Coronavirus from someone in Hotel Quarantine.. if they know that these returned travellers are at a high risk of having Covid-19, why aren’t the rooms better ventilated? In this case, the returned traveller had asthma and was using a nebuliser to help him breathe… It was well known since the first lockdown that all nebulisers in hospital were strongly discouraged due to the risk of droplets of covid being spread. Instead, using the puffer was recommended to be used through a spacer instead.

Obviously, you do the obvious.. you go out and enjoy the last few hours of freedom. The freedom of not having to wear a mask outside, being able to dine in restaurants, being able to play badminton and going shopping… I did what I miss most, playing badminton with friends ☺️

It’s bittersweet and a little depressing to go from almost normal back to being in lockdown. I am just hoping and praying it will only be for five days and that we can go back to “normal”.

The rules that are in place until Midnight on Wednesday the 17th of Feb:

We can only leave work for four essential reasons:

1. Work/Study that can’t be done from home.

2. Caring for someone or getting medical attention.

3. Essential shopping for groceries/pharmacy/etc.

4. 2 hours of exercise a day.

Other rules come back, non-essential retail stores must be closed. Masks must be worn at all times except for strenuous exercise or if they have a medical condition.

We also cannot travel more than 5km to go shopping for groceries, unless the nearest shop is more than 5km away.

No visitors are allowed to your home, unless it’s your intimate partner.

All indoors/outdoor sports are not allowed, unless you are an professional.

I am not sure if there is a ‘curfew’ like last time, but there isn’t much to do anyways.

Also, there are no visitors allowed in Hospital or Nursing homes unless in special circumstances.

Fingers crossed Melbourne 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Happy Chinese New Year!

I write this on the first day of the New Year… for the first time I have moved out from home and have not celebrated Lunar New Year dinner with my family. I realise that there are so many traditions that my mother kept and just did and I just took it for granted.

Living alone meant that many of these traditions were only made known to me when people asked me at work if I celebrated..

It’s sad to know that traditions aren’t held so highly with me, as the first child of a migrant, will I in the future keep my culture alive if ai ever had children? Or do I make my own culture?

Being Environmentally friendly to your money

I was having this thought and discussion this week…about how being environmentally friendly can lead to you saving money in the long run.

It may seems costly at first to invest in environmentally friendly products, but in the long run it can save you money as-well as help save the planet.

For example, instead using disposable forks and knives at restaurants/takeaways, how about bringing your own travel utensils kit?

Then there’s reusable drink bottles that can be refilled time and time again. Everyone also knows about the metal straws, which are also resistant to heat.

Food wraps made from beewax are costly to buy at first but think of the money saved from using disposable clingwrap.

Having reusable calico or strong bags for shopping, so you don’t have to pay for a plastic or paper bag. They also tend to be stronger , more durable and versatile, and bonus some have cute patterns!

Solar panels! Expensive upfront costs, but over time they help power your house and also can earn you money when you produce more electricity than you can use, so it goes into the grid.

Water tanks!!! Most people have water tanks in their gardens (if they have one). It is great for watering plants, cleaning cars, or to be used for flushing toilets in the home. Save money on water! Why not?

Riding a bike for short distances. This equals exercise AND transportation, as well as being fun for some people.

This is all I can think of for now, but I think you get the picture, but being environmentally friendly, you can also satisfy that stingy, money saving person in you 🤣

Do you just become sick or do you make yourself sick?

Do we just suddenly fall sick for no reason or are we the ones treating our bodies so bad that it forces us to take much needed rest?

I think I know the answer… I think I sip my ice old glass of soy milk because my coffee is too hot and I already have several mouth ulcers in my mouth.

My blood tests all came back “normal”, nothing out of the ordinary, no infection, not low in vitamin D, iron, or vitamin b12. My blood pressure standing and sitting were “fine”, but I still feel dizzy when walking around. I still feel tired and so fatigued that my mind becomes blank and I barely can make the drive to work without falling asleep. Burn out is real and your body will let you know it has had ENOUGH. You need rest it says…

If you are constantly worrying about work or thinking things will crumble if you aren’t there, then I feel you are overestimating the abilities of other people. If you are always doing everything, then how will people ever learn how to do something? So the cycle continues, because that’s how you learnt in the first place right? When you were thrown into the deep end, it’s either you sink to the bottom or you force yourself to learn to swim.

But you swim too hard, too fast, and you tire out. You forget that you aren’t in some olympic 100m swim race, you are in a marathon called ‘Life’. It’s time to pace yourself, know your limits and know how to love yourself, (that’s a post for another time).