Day -1

I can’t believe I am finally leaving tomorrow.

I am writing this as I am waiting for my last shift at work to finish…I have said good bye to some of the long time methadone and suboxone patients.. it’s surreal. I am going to miss this side job I had…

My permanent weekend side job stuck with me through the thick and the thin…through the uncertainty and unknown. It’s been the source of comfort and a stable income for once. I think this was my first permanent job. Not a short contract, casual, or intern and I got to say I have loved working for this company and this would be a company I would come back to work for again. I worked there as a student …I worked there as a pharmacist…and hopefully I can come back as a full time clinical pharmacy staff in the future. But who knows what working in Melbourne is like.

I’ve been doing small last catchups before I leave…eating out everyday…it’s sad. it’s a good bye but not a forever farewell. Home is always where my family is and I will come home …when I can. With the Coronavirus raging on in Melbourne (where I am going)…It means that I will be banned from coming back to my hometown in Adelaide..unless I am an essential worker.. This might mean the only way I can come back is to find a job back in Adelaide as an essential worker.

I played my last game of badminton in Adelaide yesterday night..boy did it feel good. I am gonna miss it :(.

Have to try seeing if all my luggage will fit in my tiny car when I get home today. wish me luck. 🙂

P.S I have recorded one last podcast that I will be uploading soon..about cars of all things!

2 days to go…

Been soooo busy these days.. doing lots of things.. but also feeling like I am not doing anything productive…

Been going out wayyyyy too much. I am not a very sociable person, so sometimes its a bit awkward…but I don’t regret it. It makes me feel sad that I am leaving behind all these wonderful people whom some I haven’t seen for months and months! It’s only because I am moving away that I am seeing them..

Packing… it has started and what started as one suitcase has turned into two suitcases, 2 crates, eight bags of clothes, and one more to come.. dont forget the badminton stuff… gym mat… laptop.. chargers.. last minute toiletries…hair dryer… contacts lens… pillow quilt.. soft toys.. snacks and drinks for the trip..I feel like I want to bring everything.. but my car is tiny.. ;(

So much to do.. but so little time 😦

Not all heroes wear capes..some are Masks

I have spent the last few days continuing to pack a little by little… some sports tops, some socks, some undergarments…and yeah the rest I might still have to use…

One thing my relatives in Melbourne have been harping on about is FACE MASKS!!!! It is now mandatory for everyone in Melbourne to wear a facemask when they go out. So, of course, there is a mask shortage in Melbourne now… Workers in hospitals, I believe also need to wear facemasks when talking to patients.

The power of facemasks to prevent community transmission of Covid-19 has been proven and effective. This small piece of cloth is able to lessen the possibility of the spread of the virus. Who knew that the humble facemask would be so widely used outside the hospital.

My mother for some reason had bought a whole of reusable cloth masks from China to use when my parents are delivering papers…who knew they would become so useful now! Wearing the resuable mask is a lot more comfortable than the surgical masks, however, whether or not they work as well is pretty questionable…

Packing

Two weeks to D-day/drive to Melbourne day. I can’t believe I am leaving. It’s always been everyone else leaving me..and this time I am leaving?!! Strange.

I just started packing..TBH I am kinda cleaning and clearing out old junk more than packing. So much dust everywhere and so much non-used stuff.. so sad.

I am so glad I did the Marie-Kondo style clean out of my room last year..it makes it a lot easier to pick what clothes I want to take to Melbourne. I am surprised that actually there isn’t a lot that will end up going with me…But yeah I never got around to the rest of the house…partly because a lot of the stuff isn’t mine so I don’t want to chuck away other people’s stuff. But today, I was like F it. I am just going to clear the bathroom of old unused stuffs and free samples and hotel stuffs etc. SUPER dusty man..

As I pack everything I think I need into my suitcase..It seems surreal that all my belongings that I want to take…seem like so little in the grand scheme of things.

People say I have guts and so brave to go to Melbourne by myself and during this Covid-19 wave.. brave…or just stupid?

Whatever it is..it’s happening.

My uni friends got me this label maker as a farewell gift.. I have already packed into my suitcase.

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I just had a look online though, the labels themselves are ridiciously expensive.. .XD I have gotten myself into a trap…-.-;

Super excited tio use this in Melb though!

Disappointed

I went back today to the laser eye surgery centre. The doctor seemed nervous as he asked me how I was before I could say “Fine”( a clear lie, since my face did not say I was fine).. he said, “Disappointed Right?”. He said it was unfortunate that the surgery had not gone fine.

I had a list of questions prepared for him about how long I needed to use the eye drops for and if I could wash my hair with shampoo! It’s been super annoying not being able to wash my hair or face…incase I injure the eye even more. Apparently, according to the doctor I have to use both eye drops until the end of the week and then the lubricant can be continued until whenever. He said, I should be able to use the contact lenses again from the following Monday…but warned it might feel more uncomfortable than normal. That does not give me any confidence at all TBH.

I said, didn’t you say that the eye drops you had prescribed prior to me getting the LASIK would ruin my contact lenses? He asked me what type do I use, and I said the hard contacts…and he said it was fine. Why is everything suddenly so contradictory? He then said glasses and contacts are fine to use until you are 40. WTH.

I asked if I could get a copy of my medical records for my own personal use and also a copy for my regular optometrist that I see. I also want a record, in case I do intend to send in a letter of complaint. I don’t think it’s alright to rush a surgery and to have me experience unnecessary anxiety and pain because they just want the $$.

He then asked me if I had received the money back,  I said no. They said to make sure I chase that up if I don’t get it in the next few days. I said okay.

I talked to my sister who had studied law in university and she said to document everything that was said (hard with my goldfish memory) and perhaps we would write a letter of complaint.

I personally wouldn’t want anyone to go through what I did. I don’t think LASIK is as good or as magical as they make it out to be. How many others have had to go through these botched surgeries? I can’t be the only one right?

-Angry

Lasik failure :(

I was so worried about post surgery complications, I didn’t even consider that the procedure would be a failure…

Prior to the surgery, I was given the choice to take some sleeping tablets to help “relax me”.. and of course I took it.. I was nervous as hell.. but little did I know what would happen next.

I don’t know how often this happens, but I was all gowned up with the hairnet, shoe covers, and ready to get lasik. I had to go through numerous stinging eyedrops, face disinfected, text over my eyes…and then they propped openmy eyes with something so I couldn’t blink.. that was a bit painful. I had to stare at a green light above me that sort of suctioned onto my eye. It was uncomfortable, there was drilling sounds, I was scared shitless. I think I knew something was wrong because the machine kept coming off and back on to my eye…what felt like an eternity later (but was probably a minute later), the doctor aborted the surgery. He had made two incisions in the flaps of my eye to try lift them, but apparently couldn’t because the shape of me eyes were weird. But mate, aren’t you supposed to check that pre-surgery? At that time I was too drowsy to say anything and really remember much.. I was taken to a recovery area with a ned.. and given an icepack for my now inflammed rye.. they were talking about there being bubbles in my eyes. WTF.

The doctor pulled me back into his room and tried to explain what happened, but he used all this medical jargon (about eyes) which I didn’t understand and was too sleepy to ask about. Why do they do that? After drugging you up telling you all this important stuff? He took out the after lasik pack which had been shown to me by a optometrist assistant prior to going into the surgery. He chucked away the antibiotic eyedrops and said “You won’t need this”. But what if I do? You have made two cuts in my eye! I can see the blood lines there and it freaks me out.

I can’t remember the last time I felt so disappointed, dissatisfied , disgusted, depressed, and yet damn angry. I have been knocked out the rest of the day. All that damn anxiety and dread leading up to the surgery day…

They also made me pay upfront BEFORE i had the surgery. What scammers. In the end they apparently “refunded” it to me on my credit card.. but honestly I can’t see it there yet…I won’t let them get away with that one. 😤😤😤

Some of my friends have told me to sue them for medical negligence. Whilst it sounds like s annoying and long-winded expensive process… I wouldn’t want anyone else to go through what I did and who knows how long my eyes will take to recover? They didn’t even tell me if I can wear contacts again.. do I have to wear sunglasses everywhere? Am I not allowed to wash my hair with shampoo? Which is what their information sheets say, but they didn’t write one up for botched surgeries.

A mixture of guilt and sadness also lies within my mind. Why did I want so bad to not have glasses? I guess they might be the safest option now…

-Sad

Waiting for lasik now

Super super nervous.. omg.. took some relaxants and sleeping tablets that were offered to me.. i think I will be knocked out post surgery… Then begins the nightly process of a trio of eyes drops, lubricants, antibiotics, and a steroid. They also are giving some pain relief meds.. to really really knock me out if needed.. hopefully will “see” you on the other side clearly.

Will I miss Adelaide?

I have been thinking lately…this might be the last time I go here, do this, see this person. Is the only way I will miss Adelaide is by leaving?

I took a good long look at my backyard and I remembered all the memories that I have had in my childhood…it feels really surreal that I am leaving soon.

I will miss playing badminton with my friends for sure. I am scared and afraid of trying to make new friends in a new city :(.

I am going to have to learn how to cook for myself. Eek…I hope that I won’t starve…

I am going to miss eating out in Adelaide, especially eating out..gymming…since Melbourne is locked down at the moment due to Covid.

Why I hate glasses

Exercising with glasses is a shit house. Glasses falls off, fogs up, and vision is blurry.

That’s what I told myself anyways…That’s why I wore contacts everyday,no matter where or what I was doing. I just feel self conscious, ugly, and not myself. When I feel contacts, I just feel so much more confident in myself that I don’t need to keep pushing up those stupid glasses that don’t ever seem to fit on my face. I just hate all the photos with me on glasses.. you can’t even see my eyes!!

That’s until I went for an appointment to see if I was eligible for Lasik surgery last week. He told me that my cornea was quite thin! The layer on top of the eye…I wonder if this is from my overuse of contact lenses 😦 Apparently you should only use it for 8 hours maximum a day, but I know for sure I wear them for 12-14 hours a day… eek..

 

Lasik Surgery

 

Just had an appointment to check my suitability for lasik eye surgery last week…It feels surreal and almost like a pyramid scheme…No glasses or contacts for the rest of my life? Too good to be true surely.

The whole appointment from start to finish took about 2 hours and I had to see three different health professionals.

The first was technician who did all the initial tests and photographs that I thought normally the optometrist would do.. Then I went to see the optometrist to review those results. Then lastly, the final boss…Saw the eye surgeon who went through what were my options and how much it would cost.

It iS expensive..$3000 to do each eye and to utterly honest I am scared shitless of them cutting into my eye and then use laser to burn off stuff in my eye. The eye surgeon booked me in a for an appointment, because he knew I would be too chicken to…and said I could confirm or cancel it the following week. He gave me some eyedrops, the brand name being FML (lol name) and I was instructed to use that 4 times a day until the scheduled surgery. I was to not wear contacts for 2 days prior to the surgery and no make up etc on the day of surgery. He also gave me some Pregabalin capsules that I was instructed to take 1 hour before the appointment, which apparently is supposed to calm the nerves.

I feel like if I don’t do it now, I might never do it ever. Then I will be chained to glasses and contacts for the rest of my life…And worried about infections..losing a contact…or breaking them and having to pay so much to replace it.

Have any of you guys had lasik done?

Things to think about when renting a place

Looking for accommodation is such a headache. But honestly, I think the more headache now, the less headache later…Finding the (near) perfect place will make a life that is more comfortable and you aren’t stuck in a lease with terrible house mates.

I am not a big fan of share houses, but I have lived in one before (in Japan), which wasn’t too bad! But, this is Australia…Melbourne…I feel like I am not ready for sharing my life with others who love alcohol or partying…

I have come up with my own list of things that I want in a rental property:

-Own ensuite bathroom and shower…I like the ability to taking a shower when I want..and I don’t want to keep moving all my cosmetics and hair washing stuff every time.. LOL and I am scared of germs.

-No-Smoking!! Or drugs! Or alcoholics! I just can’t stand the smell of smoke, drugs, or alcohol.

-Not very sociable people please…I don’t want to be kept up by party animals. I need my beauty sleep.

-I don’t mind pets…I actually would love to live with a dog or cat…as long as they are toilet trained…don’t eat my stuff, and friendly …xD

-Clean people…people who clean up after themselves…I HATE cleaning up other people’s messes and sharing a place with someone dirty…eeek

-If in a share house, I def want my own lock on my door…because I don’t want to worry about people going into my room when I am not around.

-Private parking on-site (preferably) a bit worried about street parking…because apparently there is higher crime rate in Melbourne.

-Heating and cooling.. I am super sensitive to cold and hold temperatures..LOL

-Safe neighbourhood and low crime rate..I am willing to pay more to feel safe!!

-Shops nearby for easy access to groceries.

-Nice restaurants nearby for takeaway for those lazy days.

-Quiet street and not too many cars or near a railway/airport…etc.

-Furnished…please..I don’t really want to fork out all that money to buy furniture when I am renting and also not sure how long I will stay in Melbourne

-My budget is max $250 a week..LOL…I feel like I am going to be broke renting and living in Melbourne T_T

-Having public transport nearby would be handy if I don’t want to drive to the city etc.

-Nice friendly neighbours…

These are personally the things I want to look for in a share house…I have such high expectations..I think I am better to rent my own place. LOL.

Writers Block

Not sure why, but these days I have been unable to finish writing the posts that I started. I have like two different half-written posts in my drafts.

Hopefully, the motivation and energy will come back soon and I can finish them

So much to organise before my move to Melbourne.

😦

 

Interview with a Radiographer Podcast out now!

Interview with a radiographer

Click the link above to hear the second episode of my series of interviews with a variety of people!

This episode interviews a radiographer on their normal duties at work and also what they side hustles are.

Hope you enjoy!

Having multiple job Interviews and offers

Whenever I am looking for a job, I don’t just apply for one job, I go far and wide… in the hopes of getting something and hopefully getting to choose. I mean you sort of don’t want to put all your eggs in one basket and hope for the best…We are humans 😦 We have to work for money when we are young so we can retire young and with enough income, (more on that in another post).

So what happens when you get multiple offers of interviews and during your job search you get offered a position? Depending on the company, some give you plenty of time to think about accepting, while some need the answer ASAP, because they need someone to work NOW.

I don’t think there is ever a right or wrong answer to this question. Sometimes, the job that you got an offer for would make you so depressed and sad…so much that you regret not considering the other options that were on offer… However, we have to factor in different aspects, is it contract? Full-time or part-time? Casual? What are my future career prospects? You can’t figure all that out from a job interview…you have to experience and get into the job, learn the ropes, and know the people to make that decision.

Like I said yesterday, high risk means higher returns right?

I had to reject a job interview today, but I thought about it long and hard before writing the rejection email. Would I have gone for the interview if I hadn’t already had a job offer? Absolutely. But, I have accepted an offer, and I don’t want to be the one to back out now. Fingers crossed there will be no regrets later. I personally wont do well in an interview for a job I don’t really want at the time..I feel like it would be so half-hearted…and I am not giving it my all.

I am so excited, yet so terrified! The borders between Melbourne and Sydney are closing at midnight tonight…if I go to Melbourne, I don’t know when I can come back to Adelaide. Apparently, Adelaide may close the border between us and Melbourne completely soon too…It means no one can go in or out with a very good reason (i.e. emergency…). It feels like I am stepping into a warzone, just a bit. Melbourne recorded its record number of new cases today.. Almost 200..The place is still in lockdown…so eeps.

I asked for an interesting life and I got it. I will keep updating this blog through my transition to the Covid-Central of Australia, lol. Stay tuned.

Housing Horrors

Currently have been spending the most of the day today just looking up different suburbs of Metropolitan Melbourne..Since the whole place will be locked down in stage three Restrictions from tomorrow night…I don’t have to worry about hotspot areas any more..the whole place is on fire now (with Covid-19) …=.=”

If you know me, I am terrible with maps, geography, and have a bad sense of direction. I am only able to get around Adelaide to the few places I know without GPS because I go there so often! Any new area and I use my GPS.

Imagine the difficulty I am having trying to learn Melbourne’s areas…I have literally gone off friend and family’s suggestions of suburbs and now I am starting to use a website to suss out reviews about different suburbs. I am getting there. Slowly… I have posted an ad on a a website that lists both people looking to rent out rooms or those looking for flatmates …to say I am looking for accommodation… It takes a lot of time actually! Finding a place.. it is likely I won’t be able to do house inspections…but thanks to technology I might be able to schedule in some live interview inspections…which is good I guess. Less risk for me and the occupants. Let’s see how we go! It’s another milestone for this adulting journey of mine!

Who knew it would be so hard trying to rent a place to stay? I’ve been trying to read up on tenancy agreements, bond deposits, etc…so much to consider..I am probably going to drive down there…so I will need to think about on street parking and hope it’s safe. I am going for safety and convenience.//so I guess I might be paying a bit more for that than other suburbs…