Being the perfect law abiding citizen

I’ve been think lately about why I am so afraid to break the rules. I’ve always been so afraid of being found out…of being guilty…and being called “A Bad Girl”- (No kink intended here…).

In Cantonese, the word for obedient was “Gwai”. (sounds like that)…and I loved being called a “Gwai Low” or “Obedient daughter”. I’ve always been afraid of getting hit by my parents for being naughty. I grew up with migrant Asian parents in which the norm was to hit their children when they were naughty…Is this why I am so afraid of breaking the law? Breaking the rules? And hence why I was so obedient to all the lock down restrictions? Or is it because I know the consequences of not following the rules? I saw a facebook Meme about how that people with lower intelligence tend to not follow the lockdown restrictions because they do not understand what ‘Social Distancing is’.

Maybe, it is because I am a health professional working in a hospital in which the use of PPE, gloves, and googles are the norm? I crave for freedom as much as the next person, but not at the expense of spreading this disease.

I think I am too hard on myself sometimes…It is okay not to be perfect. No one is perfect 100% of the time. It’s not ideal to make mistakes or break the law unintentionally…but it will happen… and just pray that the police didn’t catch you :o.

Is it being lazy or being efficient?

Today I managed to do a weeks worth of cleaning in one day. I was recording in a voice message to my mum what I did today.. and it was a lot (imo)..!

Woke up. Had breakfast. Then took the first load of laundry of undergarments downstairs. waited half an hour or so then took the next load, work clothes -on delicate mode- and put the undergarments in the dryer. Repeat x5. As I was hanging up the work clothes I get a call from my Aunty who was checking to see if I was alright…

After the call I try to do some study.. but I am hungry again :(. So it’s time to cook from all the left over ingredients I bought last week! So today and tmoros menu consists of frozen eel (soo delicious), frozen fishballs, frozen mixed veggies ( so colourful), fresh bokchoy x3 (coz its cheaper), 2 onions, half a garlic, half a box of smooth tofu, left over noodles…and voila! 4 or so meals are done. It tastes good too. You can’t really go wrong with these ingredients. I left of mess after cooking (and eating) as per usual.

So I started wiping down the kitchen bench.. then I realised the floor was dirty.. so I got out the good old two in one mixed head mop.. sprayed some disinfectant and water. Well, one thing led to another… I had the spray out already.. should I just clean my toilet and shower today instead of Sunday? It means tmoro I can just relax… hmmm anyways. So I ended quickly cleaning the bathroom too.. I don’t think I did as thorough as the week before.. but I’ll survive🤣🤣🤣 always feels sooo nice to have a clean toilet, clean clothes, and clean kitchen bench. My sink is still full of dishes tho 🤣🤣🤣…

Some of my colleagues are horrified to hear how I only clean once a week…but hey I live on my own and the mess is my own. If I can live with it, then it’s fine right? As long as no one else is affected 🤣🤣🤣imho.

Covid-19 in the Hospital

So I just read an email that was sent this morning to all staff at my hospital…Apparently a patient who had been in a normal ward for 6 weeks has tested positive for Covid-19. Prior to that he had already had 3 negative tests…So they are investigating how he got it and they have to quarantine all the staff that have been near him during this time. Since I have just started, it is extremely unlikely that I was exposed. But it makes me wonder, am I really safe at work?

I like talking to people and socialising at lunch..it’s great to make friends…but who knows…would the person sitting across from me be positive for Covid?

To help myself feel better, I do remember to scan the QR code that each break room has and I register what time I was there. I wear my mask in the hospital..I am constantly cleaning and sanitising my hands…But who knows?!

I am sure I will hear more about this tomorrow… so far no one in Pharmacy has tested positive as of yet, but I think there are some staff in precautionary quarantine until they get their results back.

What a ‘unprecedented‘ time we live in. (ALWAYS wanted to use that word since hearing it so much these days lol ..XD)..

Stay safe~ and wear your mask!

ps. It makes me feel better that I am living on my own and am at no risk to anyone around me. I haven’t been allowed to see any of my relatives since I moved out. I guess that’s all that I can be grateful for :)!

pps. Can’t wait to be able to play badminton again T_T..I am getting fatter each day T_T…oh yeah I met a colleague that plays badminton! Super excited…..

Day three (I think)…Haven’t moved in yet

So I finally got my keys today. But, as with all things, there are mishaps when you want to move in, the property manager called and said there was a crack in the shower floor and it might leak water into the unit below…so I had to wait for about 3 hours for a plumber to seal up the leak…and then I am not allowed to use it for at least 24 hours apparently.

Anyways……Whilst waiting for the plumber…I went up and down the stairs around 13 times..! As I had to move everything by myself I was only able to carry a little at a time..boy was it a major struggle trying to drag what seemed like a 30 kg suitcase up the stairs…

It felt SOO good to finally unload all of the crap that has been weighing down my car for the last few days and consuming so much more petrol than normal…soo good..but it took me ages to get everything out…I miss the days when I was living at my house in Adelaide and the car is soo easy and I don’t need to lock my door and the front door every time I leave the room.

As my aunties and uncles told me, I needed to make sure I documented with photos and videos the place before I moved in, just in case I get told off for damaging the property and losing my bond when I move out…I have to say, there was a lot of stuff that I didn’t realise was there previously..a greasy microwave, a dirty fridge, dusty bed frame, dusty everything! Also, the mattress itself was disgusting… the previous tenants obviously didn;t use matress protectors..coz there was all these blood stains and other stains on it..EWWWW..I tried getting rid of the stains with the antibacterial wipes…but not much luck sadly…..I also found out one of the desk lamps don’t work, not sure if I just need to replace the lightbulb…I am a bit scared to change them lol…I used an entire pack of antibacterial wipes to cover almost every surface (that I can reach) of the apartment. It just felt so unclean..not knowing who has touched that surface or when it was last clean. I then proceeded to spray Glen 20 (an antibacterial spray) literally on every surface and on matress. Then I opened the windows to air out the place a bit..who knows how long it has been vacated for..

Then I started unpacking..it’s a bit hard to say where I will keep stuff at the moment…Most of my clothes are still in the vacuum sealed bags…coz I haven’t decided what to do about them yet..I am not sure if I have enough clothes hangers either..I just grabbed a whole bunch and didn’t think about it too much… When I took them out, it didn’t seem enough…but we’ll find out I guess!

I opened up the big fat suitcase and started taking out sanitary pads, label maker, dishwashing liquid (I don’t know why I bothered to buy it all in Adelaide lol), face masks, more face masks, and random stuff that I bought in Adelaide. I unloaded all the snacks that I received and I bought before my long trip to Adelaide…and yes unboxing all my new appliances..like my kettle and air fryer…and the water filter jug…sooo sleek looking…I love it…I had to try decide where to put stuff and I am still working on it..I guess the top draws are the more frequently used stuff and bottom is less used things…so u don’t need to bend too much.
After I had enough of packing..I decided to stock up on some food..since all I had is instant soup, the snacks, and some instant noodles from my aunt. My aunt said there might be some issue with food shortages happening because the supply change is being affected and told me to stock up on frozen and long-life products.

So me being me, just wrote a list out, but didn’t really follow the list when I got there. I used a plastic bag to put groceries in when I got into the supermarket…then it got really heavy with all the canned foods, pasta, and pasta sauce I bought…so I took a basket and pretty soon that felt like it was going to break…so I decided to pay for this basket full of stuff first and then go back in with a trolley.

I spent wayyyy too much…but I need this stuff to survive…who knew living alone would be sooo expensive! It would be nice to have someone to share with…it would be a lot cheaper…but then again…the perks of living by your own rules and the design feels great! I bought a whole bunch of frozen food…vegetables, chips, fish, DUMPLINGS…and I bought fresh bread to put in the freezer… I also bought 2 bottles of long life soy milk…and yeah …canned fish, canned chicken, canned vegetables, and 2 cans of spam. I think there was a limit of 2 of each item in the store….Since my aunt said I need staples like flour, sugar, (I forgot salt), mayo, tomato sauce…I bought these also…So $$$ buying all this stuffs.!! I also bought some kitchen scissors which should come in handy. I went ham on the disinefctant…well not too ham since there is a limit of 2 items per person…but yeah there is SOOO many and like …I am so confused so i just grabbed whatever is cheapest. Also got some disposable hand gloves, reusable hand gloves, something to clean the toilet and something to clean floors…and window wipes…and air freshener!! Antibacterial hand soap!! LOL. I am cheapskate now I am living on my own. I’ll try to survive on the cheap stuff before I can invest in more expensive stuff…Cheap cling wrap, flour, sugar…lol.

I saw they had a $20 rice cooker…should I? How often will I cook rice anyways? I bought 2 packets of microwavable brown rice in case I felt like it.

What I haven’t bought is cleaning applicances..like a mop, a dust pan and sweeper…or anything like that…vacuum cleaner…I did notice a small hand held car vac in the apartment…maybe it was left behind by the previous tenant? I am not sure..didn’t try it if it works yet…will try tmoro…maybe that would be sufficient to clean my small apartment?!?! I really want a Dyson Stick vacuum tho….but soo $$..>gotta be more careful with money now that I am paying so much in rent per week T_T

So exicting and so exhilarating to be living in my own place!!!!!!!!! Still so much to do however!

Packing

Two weeks to D-day/drive to Melbourne day. I can’t believe I am leaving. It’s always been everyone else leaving me..and this time I am leaving?!! Strange.

I just started packing..TBH I am kinda cleaning and clearing out old junk more than packing. So much dust everywhere and so much non-used stuff.. so sad.

I am so glad I did the Marie-Kondo style clean out of my room last year..it makes it a lot easier to pick what clothes I want to take to Melbourne. I am surprised that actually there isn’t a lot that will end up going with me…But yeah I never got around to the rest of the house…partly because a lot of the stuff isn’t mine so I don’t want to chuck away other people’s stuff. But today, I was like F it. I am just going to clear the bathroom of old unused stuffs and free samples and hotel stuffs etc. SUPER dusty man..

As I pack everything I think I need into my suitcase..It seems surreal that all my belongings that I want to take…seem like so little in the grand scheme of things.

People say I have guts and so brave to go to Melbourne by myself and during this Covid-19 wave.. brave…or just stupid?

Whatever it is..it’s happening.

My uni friends got me this label maker as a farewell gift.. I have already packed into my suitcase.

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I just had a look online though, the labels themselves are ridiciously expensive.. .XD I have gotten myself into a trap…-.-;

Super excited tio use this in Melb though!

How to help a Hoarder Part 2: Non-perishables

Welcome and thank you for coming back to Part two of How to help a hoarder: Non-perishables, click here for Part one. I believe this is an important area to discuss, I am not sure if it is the same as where you are…but every time when I go into supermarkets, usually the toilet paper aisle is empty, hand sanitiser, gloves, facemasks, etc are all gone. So why are people hoarding this stuff? I guess some are doing it because they are selfish, other want to take advantage of the situation and sell it for an inflated price on eBay, and some may be just doing a lot of sh*t? Anyways, here are some reasons and ways to stop hoarding so much!

  • Just have one good product for each of your beauty/hair products.
    That applies to things like sunscreens, moisturisers, toners, shampoo, conditioners, face wash!! What is the point having several hundred bottles of different facewashes, when you already have one good one? Do you have that many faces to use? If you haven’t even finished the one you are using, what is the point of buying another one? When I look at my bathroom…it is full of half-used, unused, and forgotten bottles of shampoos and conditioners 😦 ….and you know what the sad thing is? Every time my parents see it on sale, they go and buy another one!! Just use up what you have already and save space and time.
  • Don’t keep buying extra things, just because it’s on sale or convenient...
    I am super guilty of this…every time I go to a chemist, I used to buy another Systane eyedrop for my avid dry eyes, but I forgot that I already have bought some at home already! So yeah, no point doing that every time…just wait till you almost run out before buying it. 
  • Be considerate and think about other people who might need the products more than you.
    I am talking about toilet paper, hand sanitiser, cleaning products, masks….etc. Why do you need so much of it? Whenever I am tempted to buy something that is rare…I think to myself…do I really need it or do I just want it? Someone else might need it more than you…
  • Think carefully about buying online, because it’s usually a lot harder to return it!
    I hate buying clothes and shoes online, coz rarely does it fit…and be a lazy and time-poor bum, I am too lazy to return it or file a complaint. More often than not, the actual product doesn’t look like the professional pictures that you were provided with…Sometimes the shipping takes soooo long that you have forgotten that you bought it, and then buy another one, either in person or online.
  • Don’t buy something just because everyone else has it too.
    FOMO is real. I know. I feel you. I am seriously jealous about those who have a Nintendo Switch and playing animal crossing. But let’s be honest here, even if I did have one, I won’t make time or have any time to play anyway. It would just sit there and gather dust…so only buy what you really need and will actually use! Be it clothes, gym equipment, books, games, etc…Save your money and the planet!
  • Donate, recycle, or throw away things you don’t need anymore
    Be willing to get rid of things that are broken and don’t keep them just “Incase” something happens! You will end up with a lot of garbage… If something is still good, but it doesn’t fit you anymore, or suit you anymore…think about giving it someone else who might fit it or donate it to charity! You can also put in the recycle bin things that can be recycled and to be made into something else. Think of it like giving something a new reincarnation. But before you say goodbye to it, do as Marie Kondo suggests, and thank the object for serving its purpose, whatever it may be. My brain is fried. I ran out/forgot what I was going to write. Trying to do an assignment is due in two days. To me, it looks like polished and formatted garbage. It’s not my best work…but… mighty GODS above please let me pass. This is my last topic..and it would be horrendously sad if I failed now. T_T.

    Anyways, cheers to hoarding less, having more space in our homes, and more money in our banks!

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Positive Points of the Pandemic

How are you guys? I hope you are doing well? Wherever in the world, you may be at the moment. I was really surprised after posting the previous post about things to do in the Pandemic at home…I had a 4000% increase in viewers of my website o.O!? And the majority of them were from America!! That’s amazing that this humble little blog from a small city in Australia has been visited by so many International guests from around the world. Anyways, I understand now is a time where it can be hard to remember to be grateful for the small things that we still have. I am not trying to say that I am glad this pandemic happened, but I want to point out the things we have learnt and the unusual positive consequences that have arisen from it. If I don’t laugh in the face of adversity, I will cry…so why not laugh?

 

  • I have never seen petrol prices so low as it is now!! In my 29 years of life,…I have neverrr seen it so low! the lowest I have seen it around is 80 cents per litre! That’s supppper cheap… The average cost is usually around $1.30 per litre for Unleaded 91 petrol.
  • I have saved money on petrol not only because it is cheap, but also due to the social distancing restrictions, I have literally nowhere to go after work -except back home! No more driving to badminton or to the gym…or to visit my sister..or shopping etc. So one tank of fuel lasts for a loonnnggg time. Due to people using less petrol for their cars and fewer flights, I guess that’s good for the environment…!
  • I have saved money because I can’t fly anywhere…so even though I have the travel bug, there is a reason why I shouldn’t/can’t fly at the moment. I am super grateful I was still able to go on my trip and come back safely from New Zealand before all the travel restrictions and quarantine rules kicked in Australia. Super super grateful!
  • I have a legit excuse to skip the gym after work … xD I am usually pretty hard on myself and force myself to go, whether I feel like it or not! But, now with the gym closed, I am forced instead to take walks during lunch or after work and enjoy nature. I am finding out all sorts of cute and quirky things in my neighbourhood.
  • As a pharmacist, I always felt like our profession was always undervalued,
    forgotten, and underutilised. Through this pandemic, there have been so many changes to the rules that have allowed pharmacists more authority than ever before to exercise their clinical expertise more than any other time before. It is also highly recognised that pharmacists who are administering influenza vaccines to the public are helping to decrease the burden on the already overflowing GP clinics. We have also been given the (temporarily) authority to change strengths and forms of prescription items so that supply can be given to the patient without prior approval by the GP. Emergency supplies of medication to people who can’t get into their GP have also been approved in certain circumstances.

 

  • Random Strangers have been more friendly and strike up conversations. I remember when I first heard of the toilet paper shortage, I went to the grocery store and bought two small packs. The random stranger next to me asked me why was everyone buying toilet paper… I said, “I don’t know, but I am just going to buy some in case!”.

 

  •  I have never appreciated the supermarket workers as much as I do now and also never felt appreciated as much as now…With their friendly smiles and small talk, it is pleasant to make small talk with them. In particular, the supermarket near my hospital has been giving away free soup to the hospital, police, and emergency workers. I later went to purchase some items after work and told the checkout assistant that I loved the free soup I got today and she said she was extremely grateful for the hard work that we do. I said, “I appreciate you guys immensely too!”. Because I do, without those workers going in every day to fill the stock, we would have no food to eat! In addition, today, I called Medicare to ask about concession and safety net entitlement cards for a patient and the man I spoke to said, “Stay Safe!” at the end of the conversation…I know these are small things and they are from people I don’t know, it just feels nice to know that people do care about each other. I know these are really small things, but they really do…

 

  • Being grateful for a normal life. After this pandemic, I will always remember how good it will be to meet friends, to go to the gym, to play badminton… to attend concerts, do exams, fly overseas…All of these things that I have taken for granted for so many years… I will be super grateful to be able to do all those things again! #grateful

 

  • EVERYTHING IS SOOOO CLEANNNNNN! I love it. We’ve never been as aware of cleanliness till now. Maybe it is just me, (as you can see in my post about being a germaphobe), but I am glad there is hand sanitiser everywhere and supermarkets having gloves for us to use! I like the idea of having personal space of 1.5 metres between everyone…coz even before I hate hearing people breathe loudly near me or get into my special personal space …xD … My dad is guilty of not washing his hands after going to the toilet, thanks to this pandemic I have stressed the importance of washing your hands for at least 20 seconds and using soup! If you haven’t already seen it, you should the video on how to handwash -the proper way by WHO.

 

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Stay safe and wash your hands (properly)!!

How I became a Germaphobe

Before this pandemic crisis, some people have accused me of being too much of a germaphobe…however, I can remember exactly why I am the way I am based on my experiences…It’s time for a trip down memory lane…..

I still remember when I was around 11 years old, I had just finished borrowing some books from my local library…and I needed to cross the road to get to our car. I pressed the pedestrian crossing button…and when I went home, it was all downhill from there.

When I went home my finger suddenly felt incredibly itchy. I looked at my finger and small yellow pimple-like pus filled bumps appeared on my pinky finger. I had to cover my entire in bandages because the pus kept leaking out…Anyways, I used this as an excuse to not play violin anymore…because whatever that virus or infection was…it stayed there! I contemplate that there may have been a small cut in my finger which meant that whatever germs was on that pedestrian button must have gone in. Needless to say, I did my best to not touch a pedestrian button from that day.  Strategies to avoid touching it include, waiting for someone else to press it.. there’s plenty of inpatient people around who will press it regardless whether or not someone has done it already :P. I can also use things (that can be easily cleaned later) in my bag to press it, i.e. car/house keys, pens, or umbrellas! This goes the same for elevator buttons and whatever buttons.


 

Fast-forward the future, I was in my third year of pharmacy school and we were doing a microbiology subject in which we investigated the number of bacteria which was on different surfaces. My friend and I both did a swab of our phone screens…A few days later when we came to see our results…My swab came back with bacteria of all colours..it was incredibly gross! However, my friend’s phone only had a few small dots of the same colour. Obviously, there was a massive difference between the two of our phones…I felt incredibly grossed out about the disgustingness of my phone…and this is when I started becoming a little obsessed with having a clean phone, hand, and surfaces if needed. I bought small single use alcohol wipes and put them everywhere, so that I could have clean hands, phones, etc whenever. If no soap in the toilet, no worries I have my alcohol wipes…I found alcohol wipes worked better for me than those small bottles of hand sanitiser because I am quite bad at putting the lid back on properly after using it and it spilt all over my bag… numerous times..

 


Few more years later, I went on a trip to Canada and I had a friend who was even more germaphobe than me! He would always take extra napkins at restaurants and put his phone down on a napkin. I asked him why he did that, and he said… “How do you know that this table is clean? Maybe they haven’t wiped down the table properly..there might be germs on it” and then your phone is DIRTY. MIND BLOWN and from then on, I never put my phone down on any public surface again…even at work I like to put my phone on my book or on a tissue… and I try clean my phone and watch at least once a day when I get home.


 

Using cutlery at restaurants…I never thought about it this way…but I had a friend who would vigoursly wipe spoons and forks at restaurants a clean tissue before use…because who knows how clean they really are… I remember when I was in China as a child to visit relatives, the restaurants provided you with near boiling water so that you would disinfect and wash all the cutlery they provide you. I now try make sure none of my cutlery ever touch the table and I really really get pissed if the waiters just throw your cutlery directly on the table.

 


Once when working in a community pharmacy, there was a little old lady that was on some anti-viral tablets (maybe for herpes() who suddenly leaned across the counter and gave me a huge kiss on my cheek. EWWWW is all I could hear in my head.. When she was gone, I literally put alcohol gel all over my face…who knew what viruses she may be spreading. I have always been super paranoid about getting cold sores, because I don’t have them…IF i share a drink with someone, I have to ask them if they have had coldsores before….because I reallllly don’t want that thanks.

 


Working in the health care made me aware that I could be encountering people with all sorts of diseases and viruses when working in the pharmacy or in the hospital. I have made it a habit to always shower when getting home and washing my hair and getting rid of my work clothes…I try to wear a near set of clothes each day…who knows what germs are harboured on my clothes :O.


The constant cleanliness that I can see in my community makes me extremely happy…I am glad others are thinking about germs now…I hope this stays even post pandemic..

I will show you some photos of places in Adelaide putting into practice social distancing and making sure that sick people don’t infect others.

Every second check out is closed to allow for social distancing in supermarket.

 

 

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This was my badminton club before they closed the gym..making sure that everyone cleans their hands while playing and yes, they are worried about people stealing the hand sanitiser.

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This was outside one of the pharmacies that I went to…They asked people with any signs of symptoms not to enter the pharmacy… Other pharmacies also had signs saying they would close in the middle of the day to clean all the surfaces. There was also hand santiser at the entrance for all customers entering the shop

 

 

This was my coles at 7am when I went there to buy groceries in the early morning which was open just to frontline workers.. Everyone is standing about 1.5 metres apart…for “social distancing”.IMG_2525

Stay safe guys! Hugs and kisses are out~ Foot shakes and waves are in.

Joy

 

 

 

A clear room and a clear mind

I have finished tidying up my room! It took a good solid two weeks of tidying and cleaning, but it is DONE!

Do you know what benefits I have had in cleaning my room?

  1. I killed a spider
  2. I found about $25 of money in red packets and in loose change in my piggy bank!
  3. Found a lot of foreign currency I didn’t know I had! -$$ unknown
  4. Discovered socks and clothes that I didn’t even know I had.
  5. I can now pull out something from the hangers in my wardrobe without pulling out five others at the same time.
  6. I know where everything is! Because I basically went through everything!
  7. Less dust! As I finally cleaned the surfaces that had stuff on it for ages.
  8. I donated at least 10 bags of items to charity – benefit for society? HAhaha
  9. Found lots of photos, sticker photos and things from friends that I have stuck around my room – the colour really brightens up the place 🙂
  10. Everything just feels more organised! I love opening up a draw or a door and seeing everything I own at once.I have officially joined the Marie Kondo Kult- I am a life member now… Let me show you some before and after photos!

 

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^I had over 140 coat hangers…I am so surprised I even have that many clothes to hang!!

After the 2 week cleaning spritz..

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And that’s a wrap on my cleaning spritz…and now let’s hope my mind gets cleared too. 🙂

I learnt a lot about learning to let go of things that have passed its expiry date…About things you have to let go in order to move on to better things..as Kondo says, how can you appreciate what “Sparks Joy” if you have too many things to look after?

Change will be coming soon!

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The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying- Marie Kondo

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So I have finished the first book by Marie Kondo “The Life-changing Magic of Tidying” and have started listening to the audiobook for her second book. I think it is too early to tell if my life has changed from tidying…well technically I haven’t finished yet.. I am still in the process of getting rid of papers and books…It’s a bit hard…I went through all my notes from my University undergrad days…and there sure was a lot of trees that were sacrificed for my sake. :(. I feel bad for chucking away all the once important informations…but to be honest…when am I going to need it again?

Things are always changing in my profession, so whatever I was taught back then is probably out of date and superseded by some new information…

Going through all my books from university, I noticed that my style of studying changed dramatically throughout the year. I started with using just A4 clear plastic folders…then this turned into those folders in which you can bind papers together and still write on them…then in my later years I discovered the “ART OF BINDING”! And I bound all my notes for a subject in one big chunk…It was awesome..But it also meant I had to carry all of my notes despite maybe only needing just one lecture note.

That aside, I had to really think, what would I like to keep?

In the end the things that I kept were things that I thought maybe I would use in the future..for me personally it was things pertaining to Clinical Trials and Opioid Substitution therapies in which are the areas I work in at the moment. I also kept some mock oral exam scenarios…just incase I ever am able to get into teaching! I would love to be one of those on the other side of the examination table…

Marie Kondo said there are two main reasons why people find it difficult to discard things...
  1. 1. They are worried they might need that item in the future
  2. 2. They are afraid of letting go of the past and the memories attached to those objects.

    This really struck me hard. Why had I kept so much stuff? Was it because I wanted to remember the past? While cleaning up my room, I found letters, cards photos, random keepsakes of places I have travelled to and postcards…What was the point of keeping all of these things? I honestly don’t ever even look at it! They only get found by cleaning. ..Marie Kondo says many people say they want to be able to grow old and then have all of these memories to reflect back on the past... But what about living in the moment? Why do you want to live forever in the past? What happened to making good memories right now? Reminiscing greatly does not help in my opinion…unless you just want to remain stuck in the past.

I did find it hard to let go of all the excess items that I have hoarded. These things looked perfectly usable…HOWEVER, I did not use them. Marie Kondo also said, “If you look after your things, they will look after you”. I honestly do not think I look after most of my items well…No wonder they look sad and worn out! She stressed the importance of treating your things with respect and making sure that the items return to the home that they came from. She also shared in her book that she thanks her items for the hard work they have done for her for that day…that may sound crazy, but who knows…maybe your items will work for you longer :O..I personally think t doesn’t hurt to be grateful for what you have…

This clean has made me realise that I am just as bad of a hoarder as my parents…but you probably would not be able to tell at first glance at my room…It’s relatively clean…Minimal items on the floor..I have boxes, cupboards, and wardrobes that hide all my excess items. It looks clean, but it really isn’t…I’ve just created that illusion by putting all my things away behind closed doors…It made really think about my life…and have I also been stuffing all my true intentions, emotions, and hiding how who I am and what I truly feel behind closed doors?

So, I do believe that the tidying that I have been doing has really challenged the way I think about problems…am I really solving them ? Or just temporarily hiding it out of sight? In which they will resurface again each time I do a “Clean”…

How about you? Are you going to take the challenge and get into the  Life Changing Magic of Tidying? You never know what sort of life lessons you might learn from it!

 

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Controlled by the Small Things-Random Rants

It occurred to me the other day, that humans are very similar to robots. Push this button, they will do something, show a light and they will move, show a different one they will stop. We obey signs that tell us how fast we can drive, to watch out for ducks, or to give way to other cars…without all these signs everywhere, life would supposedly be chaos.

I remember when I was visiting my mother’s rural town in China…They had no traffic lights back then…it was just go-in an hope for the best… I remember seeing a poor mans cart of fruits topple over…in the middle of the street…amongst people that just continued moving on with their lives…I remember how sad I felt at that time..I felt so sorry for him…yet I was on my uncle’s scooter riding in the opposite direction.

Do you ever feel like you ought to do something…but you really don’t want to…so you don’t…but then someone else does it…and you feel super guilty for not offering to do it?

I am guilty as charged.. That’s how I felt the other day…So there was a farewell party at work for someone who was leaving…and before I went downstairs with a colleague, we passed another colleague who was on meal monitoring duty… As I passed by, I told her about the party downstairs..and she said she might head down there since she was finishing soon…it crossed my mind that I should offer to take over her monitoring since I was scheduled to finish later than her…but at the same time I was like…but I really don’t want to and I want to get to that farewell…and I turned to leave…but then my other colleague who was going downstairs with me…turned and asked her if she wanted us to relieve her.. I felt major guilt..I did not do what my instincts had said was the right thing to do.

I don’t know even how my rant got to here..

Anyways, on a side note..I have began the great Kondo style declutter of my room ! I should have taken before and after photos… but honestly I hide all my stuff in closets and boxes. But the damage so far is five full garbage bags of clothes donated to charity…They were new and nice clothes I Donated..not crappy old ones..it’s a bit hard parting with it…but if I am not going to wear it, isn’t it better to go with someone else who will appreciate it more??

More on this decluttering topic later.. I have learnt a lot of things just from cleaning my room! Marie Kondo sure is onto something. I’ve started reading her book and am 3 quarters way through…its an amazing book- highly recommend!

 

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The Art of Tidying Up – Marie Kondo

A few months ago, I was visiting my sister…and she was like… “Come and see how awesome my sock drawer is!”…as she proudly showed me the neatly folded up socks in their own individual square. My sister explained to me, by folding your socks this way, you save time and you also lessen the chance that you will destroy the elastic in your socks. A bonus is that it looks so neat and cute! This was the first time (that I remember) I heard of the now well-known name.. “Marie Kondo”. This was the day I became a Konvert. I could not wait to go home and do the same thing to my sock drawer…and then proceed to spread the discovery of this wonder to my mother…and anyone else that would listen…

I was so excited…I felt this was more than just the tidying up in a different way of my socks…it was deeper in a sense that…I had to break an old habit and make a new one. The old way is comfortable, familiar and seemed easy …but when shown this new and more efficient way…I realised…maybe I have been doing it wrong my whole life.

It almost does certainly feel like a religion! For the next few days and weeks…I spent a lot of time Tidying up my room. After I finished my sock drawer, I went on with the underwear, the sports clothes drawer, the leggings and singlets…and then it was t-shirts and shorts… I went out and bought extra containers to separate my clothes. Eventually…I came to a stand still…there are a whole bunch of clothes hanging up…its so hard…I can’t choose which to keep and which to throw…and then I began my procrastination. My fervour was gone…less time was spent tidying. I still folded my clothes different…but it was with less joy and it was not as visually appealing as before.

Isn’t that true with life in general? We can whole heartedly pursue a new goal, dream and hobby! We get obsessed with it…we feel like that’s all that matters in life…it becomes the focus of all our attention. Then… we become familiar with it, we get slack, we get disinterested…and something else pops up and we forget all about it. Does this ring true for anyone?

How do we keep going and keep pursuing something when we have lost interest? Do we fight at it? Or will it just come back naturally?

I don’t know the answer for you…but for myself…I believe that if the motives behind my doing something is align with my inner values and beliefs…that I will go back to what I started/did. For example, as a young child in primary school, I hated being told what to do…my mother made me learn piano but I hated it! I hated practicing…I don’t like those songs we learn either. EWW. I wanted to instead play the VIOLIN. For some reason I thought it would be wayyyy cooler and I would naturally want to practice at it. To my surprise, my parents agreed and I got to stop my piano classes and take up violin instead…

Then started the weekly classes, then the rehearsals for orchestra…and my mum was getting excited…her child was performing! But, something happened…I got an infection over my finger…and I used that as an excuse not to play…I had inwardly not grown to love the violin…I secretly regretted every changing! Violin I found was wayyy harder to play than the piano…I had to tune the violin, set up the neck rest…which was hard to get used to…and I had to look after the bow and keep it clean and pack the violin carefully away in its case. It was a lot of things to remember for a young kiddo. After taking that break…I never went back, probably to my parents and grandparents disappointment.

Fast track a few years later I am in high school now… I didn’t choose music as a subject as I hadn’t didn’t play an instrument anymore. I just so happened to meet two friend who were doing music…one played the violin and the other played piano…suddenly I also wanted to join back in…I didn’t feel like I wanted to pick up the violin again…so I went back to taking piano classes and I sneaked back into music classes once again.

This time I got a new piano teacher, I told her I didn’t want to learn from those boring graded books anymore, instead I asked if I can learn my favourite theme songs from my favourite anime at that time, Naruto. (Yes, I am was a sad otaku back then…). Loving the background music from those anime, motivated me..inspired me and made me want to practice so I could also play the music that I was passionate and interested in. I no longer needed my mother to push me to practice, it was more like the opposite… I think at the time I probably annoyed the family by playing the piano so much…I would play for hours and they would get annoyed because they wanted to watch tv but they couldn’t hear what was being said. SORRY…!. Well, since that time I haven’t really stopped playing. I still listen out for good music, whether it be songs or background music and seek to learn them….Music for me has always been a way to escape..to forget the present…and allows me to transport myself to somewhere else. It’s the most beautiful noise I think we can make. I don’t know how to explain it and I am not sure how I got to this topic…but hopefully you can find what motivates you and find the reason to keep going and pursuing what makes you tick.

I believe I will get back into the tidying…because the reason why I do it is because of efficiency and I love that feeling of neatness and tidiness. In order to feel good however, first we have to go through the tidying process which can be quite uncomfortable because it makes us face the mess in our lives and actually deal with the problem at hand. I watched the netflix show…but haven’t read her book as of yet, if you haven’t checked out Marie Kondo…I  highly recommend doing it!!

-Konvert