2 days to go…

Been soooo busy these days.. doing lots of things.. but also feeling like I am not doing anything productive…

Been going out wayyyyy too much. I am not a very sociable person, so sometimes its a bit awkward…but I don’t regret it. It makes me feel sad that I am leaving behind all these wonderful people whom some I haven’t seen for months and months! It’s only because I am moving away that I am seeing them..

Packing… it has started and what started as one suitcase has turned into two suitcases, 2 crates, eight bags of clothes, and one more to come.. dont forget the badminton stuff… gym mat… laptop.. chargers.. last minute toiletries…hair dryer… contacts lens… pillow quilt.. soft toys.. snacks and drinks for the trip..I feel like I want to bring everything.. but my car is tiny.. ;(

So much to do.. but so little time 😦

Packing

Two weeks to D-day/drive to Melbourne day. I can’t believe I am leaving. It’s always been everyone else leaving me..and this time I am leaving?!! Strange.

I just started packing..TBH I am kinda cleaning and clearing out old junk more than packing. So much dust everywhere and so much non-used stuff.. so sad.

I am so glad I did the Marie-Kondo style clean out of my room last year..it makes it a lot easier to pick what clothes I want to take to Melbourne. I am surprised that actually there isn’t a lot that will end up going with me…But yeah I never got around to the rest of the house…partly because a lot of the stuff isn’t mine so I don’t want to chuck away other people’s stuff. But today, I was like F it. I am just going to clear the bathroom of old unused stuffs and free samples and hotel stuffs etc. SUPER dusty man..

As I pack everything I think I need into my suitcase..It seems surreal that all my belongings that I want to take…seem like so little in the grand scheme of things.

People say I have guts and so brave to go to Melbourne by myself and during this Covid-19 wave.. brave…or just stupid?

Whatever it is..it’s happening.

My uni friends got me this label maker as a farewell gift.. I have already packed into my suitcase.

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I just had a look online though, the labels themselves are ridiciously expensive.. .XD I have gotten myself into a trap…-.-;

Super excited tio use this in Melb though!

Having multiple job Interviews and offers

Whenever I am looking for a job, I don’t just apply for one job, I go far and wide… in the hopes of getting something and hopefully getting to choose. I mean you sort of don’t want to put all your eggs in one basket and hope for the best…We are humans 😦 We have to work for money when we are young so we can retire young and with enough income, (more on that in another post).

So what happens when you get multiple offers of interviews and during your job search you get offered a position? Depending on the company, some give you plenty of time to think about accepting, while some need the answer ASAP, because they need someone to work NOW.

I don’t think there is ever a right or wrong answer to this question. Sometimes, the job that you got an offer for would make you so depressed and sad…so much that you regret not considering the other options that were on offer… However, we have to factor in different aspects, is it contract? Full-time or part-time? Casual? What are my future career prospects? You can’t figure all that out from a job interview…you have to experience and get into the job, learn the ropes, and know the people to make that decision.

Like I said yesterday, high risk means higher returns right?

I had to reject a job interview today, but I thought about it long and hard before writing the rejection email. Would I have gone for the interview if I hadn’t already had a job offer? Absolutely. But, I have accepted an offer, and I don’t want to be the one to back out now. Fingers crossed there will be no regrets later. I personally wont do well in an interview for a job I don’t really want at the time..I feel like it would be so half-hearted…and I am not giving it my all.

I am so excited, yet so terrified! The borders between Melbourne and Sydney are closing at midnight tonight…if I go to Melbourne, I don’t know when I can come back to Adelaide. Apparently, Adelaide may close the border between us and Melbourne completely soon too…It means no one can go in or out with a very good reason (i.e. emergency…). It feels like I am stepping into a warzone, just a bit. Melbourne recorded its record number of new cases today.. Almost 200..The place is still in lockdown…so eeps.

I asked for an interesting life and I got it. I will keep updating this blog through my transition to the Covid-Central of Australia, lol. Stay tuned.

I am big big girl in a big big world

There was this song that my sister and I liked when we were younger called “I am a big big girl in a big big world”...and that’s how I am feeling right now.

I am just staring at the word BIG and it looks so weird. lol.

I just got a call from the interstate job I had an interview and I got told that they would like to offer the position to me- as long as I pass my police clearance and working with children checks etc.. !!

Exciting news…It hasn’t even sunk in yet and I am already stressing about how I am going to move myself and all my shit down to Melbourne…

Speaking of Melbourne, it is currently the Covid-19 hotspot in Australia…it seems like we have a smaller but surely a second surge of cases in Melbourne. There are currently some areas in which there are higher numbers of Covid Cases in Melbourne that are under lockdown, while the rest are free to roam with restrictions.

Adelaide, however is back to normal ..almost. There are still some restrictions, but at least most things are open already.

There are so many things to think about in the move..where will I stay, how will I get there, should I bring my car? WHERE WILL I PLAY BADMINTON?!

But anyway, I will worry about that more tomorrow.

Last Day

Last days are so awkward.

There is a swirl of emotions.

Happiness. Sadness. Regret. Anxiety.

There are people that you may never see again.

There are some you want to say Good Riddance forever to

Then there are others that you want to hold onto to.

So many memories are made…both the good and the bad.

But, you appreciated the journey.

You learnt something new.

You grew a bit as a person and as an adult.

And you are one step closer to where you might want to go.

You’ll miss it, but you don’t know if you would go back given the chance.

But maybe you will have the opportunity one day.

Who knows?

Being able to Eat out again

Don’t mean to brag or anything, but in South Australia, as I have mentioned before, things are almost back to normal. For the first time since forever, I dined in at an actual restaurant and had table service and all! The food was the best I have had this year, hands down. Maybe, it’s because all I have been having is takeaway and food court style foods…it’s the small things in life you didn’t know you will miss until it’s gone.

Shopping centres are open once again and it was filled to the brim with people. Sure, there was still reminders to social distance in the shops and on escalators. But it is hard to do when there is soo many people around. We still aren’t allowed to dine in at the food courts, so they have banned people from sitting on the tables and chairs, however there were groups of people sitting and eating on the floor….I think that’s even more unhygienic…but yeah.. lol… Who would imagined that Australians would be sitting on the floor of a food court eating?!?!

As there is still a limit to how many people can dine in at a restaurant, my friends and I put our name and number down at the restaurant we wanted to go to and walked around the shopping centre until they called us to say the table was ready.

Felt like a century ago since we were able to meet up, eat together, and shop together.

Super grateful.

The end of a chapter and the start of the next

The cogs of change are changing again and life as I had known it for the last 9 months , funny how it started as a 4 week gig. When did it change? When did I stop caring, stop striving, and lost my focus?

I think I did bring it upon myself…too scared to let go of what is safe and what is familiar and immerse myself into the unknown. I am not sure if that is partly the reason why I find myself in this predicament. But then ironically, I prove myself right. It didn’t work out, but at least I have a some form of security in knowing that I have the second job while looking for something new.

It’s scary. Not knowing what my future will be like. But hey, this has been happening every few months before a contract ends. I still remember the terror and anxiety I felt when my first contract was almost ending…I was worried did I make a good impression? I’ve always worked hard and did my best to be nice to everyone. But I guess when you so hard and with no recognition, you start feeling under appreciated, tired, stressed, and burdened. Too scared to complain because you want to be chosen to stay there, yet everyday feels harder than the day before.

This good bye was inevitable. There are regrets, but there are also moments where I had a confidence that I did not have before and I am proud that this difficult situation developed that in me. Standing up for my rights and of others is something that I strive to do. I think it has something to do with respecting yourself and speaking up when something things off or wrong. Working in a mental health institution has always been a goal of mine and I have fulfilled that and believe this was be a stepping stone into something greater.

Apparently, with this company there will be an exit interview…this is not something I have done before, despite working in so many places previously. There is so many things I want to say, but I need to be careful of saying anything too bad,  because I need this people to be referees. There is never a way to win is there? Better to leave on good times than bad. I am both scared, yet also looking forward to a change of scenery. Bring on the last 3 weeks of full time work…

Stay Tuned for updates

Nothing Beats the Original

Technology has kept us together during this pandemic, but no matter how technologically advanced technology can become…it still doesn’t beat real life. For the first time since forever, we had my Aunt and Uncle over at the same time as my sister and my immediate family. Nothing beats having a meal together with loved ones…We can video chat all we want, but it is so hard to give your undivided attention in a video chat. It just didn’t feel the same. Eating the same food is just more enjoyable when it’s shared with people whose company you enjoy.

This pandemic has really emphasized how important and how much I enjoy the same family gatherings. Because my Uncle is originally from England, my aunt and uncle spend half the year in Adelaide and the other half in England. Normally at this time of the year, they would be overseas in London during this time of the year, so it is nice to have them around to celebrate their birthdays.

On a side note, to minimise the risk of transmission of germs, we all had disposable plates, cutlery, and cups to use and we also didn’t sit too close to my Aunt and Uncle, to make sure we are still abiding by the rules of social distancing. . Not good for the environment, but good for me since I was responsible for cleaning up the mess after the party! Can’t say I had missed that…

Pandemic Ponderings

Just reflecting on how life is changing in the last few days have made me realise how much I have changed during this pandemic. Prior to the pandemic which led to a toilet paper shortage in Australia, I have never tried using a flushable toilet wipe. I have always been a plain jane toilet paper user…I am not even game to use those fancy bidet toilets in Japan…I’ve just been a big toilet paper fan (till now). However, this pandemic has made me discover the wonders and the satisfaction of using a flushable wipe, especially after a heavy meal (if you know you know).

Since toilet paper has been back on shelves, for some ODD REASON I can’t find the flushable wipes as easily in the supermarkets anymore! I am hooked! But, obviously, the supermarket may have decreased buying the wipes since toilet paper is back. Instead of the toilet paper hunt, I am not hunting for these sacred flushable wipes. Oh so expensive, but as it says on the box, ‘Leaves you feeling Shower-Fresh’. If you haven’t tried it before, you really should get your hands on some and then you will understand what I mean. Contrary to some people’s fears, I don’t believe they block the toilet drain, I could be wrong but they are supposed to ‘disperse’ in water somehow.

Another pondering that I have, is whether or not I still need my gym membership!?! I have my own yoga mat now and I have cleared out enough space in my room to do exercise AND cleared enough photos from my mirror to be able to see through it. It’s so comfortable and easy to work out from home with Blogpilates or some other Youtube Instructor… I feel like life is going to start changing back to how it was and I feel like it will take time to adjust to ANOTHER new normal again…

Though I miss seeing my friends at badminton gatherings, to be honest. Not much has changed, I didn’t go out much before and I don’t go out now. BUT I guess during the pandemic, there is less FOMO for me because everyone else is staying in too. HAHA? In a way, it’s a plus.

I am going to be taking my first exam online through a Proctor Website which is going to be exciting and scary…but a new experience none the less.

I have also confirmed that indeed my thumb is not green and is probably black. The seedling that I planted in my front garden, has not been able to sprout! I think it possibly has died!?!?  Ohwell, at least I tried. A for Effort.

I have learnt that there are many more shops I can avoid going into, by shopping online and taking advantage of their FREE SHIPPING!! Many websites have lowered minimum buy to qualify for free shipping!! I just feel like it saves a lot of time, rather than going into a shop and realising they don’t have what you want..!

I’ve also had a few phone calls from the GP instead of proper face to face meetings and I actually don’t find it too bad! It can be a bit awkward with the unexplained sudden silences, but it is much more convenient for someone as time-poor as me.

 

These are the things I have learnt and experienced for the first time during Covid-19, how has your life changed?

Expectations Vs Reality

Have you ever ordered one of those “Meal Prep Ready Kits? i.e HelloFresh etc?”, they contain all the ingredients and instructions to make the beautiful dishes that are pictured on the front of their brochures? You get super excited because you are going to end up with that awesome looking meal for dinner. Get that feeling? NO?  Well, anyway let me explain, how many times has it turned out like how you expected? The carrots you received became soggy in the fridge, your knives weren’t sharp enough to cut the vegetables up nicely like they did, you old stove cooktop doesn’t have accurate temperature settings, so your beef is a bit burnt. Your egg didn’t turn out that beautiful sunny way that you imagined it would be. You plate it up and take a photo of it for the sake of showing everyone the effort that you TRIED to make it like the picture. You write #Nailedit when you mean FAILED IT.

It not only looks shit, but it tastes shit too :(. Our great expectations can sometimes lead to great dissapointments as well. We hype ourselves up, this is the moment, this is the job we always wanted, this is the relationship that we always wanted… We all have this fake, unrealistic expectations that this is what you wanted…maybe…maybe just in your head. Perhaps some people are born more as dreamers than others. We don’t settle for what we have, we aren’t comfortable where we are…we always want…whatever is on the other side. Because the grass is always greener on the other side?  Isn’t it?  It really might be! Or it could end up being fake artificial grass. LOL.

 

What is the point of this post? I just wanted to say, there are so many expectations that I have had of myself…I turned the big 3-0 this year and it still amazes me that I still feel like the same kid that I was 12 years ago when I first finished high school. I had no idea what I would be doing, but I thought that by 30 I would be married, kids, stable job, house, dog, moved out… But, hey I am turning 30 in about 6 months and I certainly have none of that… Still single, have a pet turtle, still living with parents, on a contract job, STILL studying. But that is not what I am focussing on, I don’t want to be all negative and pessimistic. I think it’s okay to have expectations. Because I guess it gives you hope that things will change. I might be better off in 10 years than I imagined in my head and do you know what? I have realised some of those things, I don’t think I even necessarily want! It’s just that the people and environment have bred me to believe that’s what it takes to become an adult and to be seen as an adult by others.

Marriage? Maybe. Kids? Probably not. House? Yes, if I can still travel too…the loan is like a chain to my geet though :(. Dog? Yes, but I MIGHT even settle for just a cat, stable career? That’s a bit boring… I get bored in one job for too long :(.

Maybe our mindset changes, maybe we as people are just changing. Whatever it is, I am just saying it’s okay to not be where you thought you would be. Because you wouldn’t be where you are now if you didn’t walk the path you took.  Wow look at me trying to be philosophical and shit, but anyway, that’s my random rant for this week.

 

Thank you and Stay safe!

 

 

Health Care Heroes?

I am somewhat conflicted on the special treatment that ‘Health care workers’ have been receiving during this pandemic. While I think it is great that people are acknowledging the blood, sweat, and tears that happens in the health care industry and how tough and risky it can be…I feel somewhat guilty, almost, because there are so many other essential workers that aren’t receiving recognition for their commitment and hard work. Even as a health care professional, I am just doing my job…and I am getting paid for it! So I feel a bit bad that others are just doing their job, but not getting the recognition they deserve too.

I have mentioned in previous posts, the perks that have been on offer for health care workers during the Covid-10. Free soup, free coffee, discounted food, free parking in hospitals, free public transport, VIP early access to supermarkets on certain days of the week…and recently I heard they were giving free road side assist until the end of the year for AAMI customers. Thank you for acknowledging the hard-working health care professions who continue to go to work day in and day out, and they are unable to ‘work from home’, where it is safe…because our work revolves around patients and being onsite. It’s almost like token days like Valentines Day, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day…these days where you show love and appreciation for your parents or your lover. BUT, does that mean on all the other ‘normal’ day of the year, you won’t show your love an appreciations? I feel like it should be a permanent thing and not just a temporarily we finally acknowledge your importance to society kind of thing. Hope that makes sense.

In saying that, while health care workers are on the front line and incredibly important to fighting this Covid-19…I feel bad for the other ‘essential workers’ that are keeping the country running too. There’s not much love for those truck drivers who continue to keep food getting to all parts of Australia, the taxi and bus drivers for transporting people, the postie that has been working hard to deliver our letters and packages that we’ve ordered online… Then there are those food delivery drivers who are delivering food to those who might not be able to leave their home and are helping keep restaurants running during this time. There are the police, firemen, and the politicians who are working hard on planning for the recovery of Australia to become a stronger and better nation. I am sure I am forgetting a WHOLE lot of important people…the supermarket staff, cafe staff, farmers, electricians, receptionists, petrol station workers….SO MANY. We have to remember to THANK them too for continuing to work and keep this country running during the pandemic.

So, in conclusion, no hate towards health professionals or myself…but I do believe there are many ESSENTIAL people who may not be getting the recognition they deserve for doing their job as well. I am just doing my job, so why should I get praised for that?

Your thoughts are more than welcome.

The easing of Covid-19 Restrictions in Australia

Considerations needed before lifting the restrictions in Australia during the pandemic.

Now, more than ever, I think it is really tough to have the top job in Australia, because you have to make difficult decisions of whether you choose to open up the country again or to stay in lock down to prevent the spread of Covid 19. There are both good and bad points about lifting the restrictions in Australia and this post will examine this in greater detail.

Scott Morrison who is the current leader of Australia has made some pretty sensible decisions during this global pandemic in my humble opinion. One decision that I praise him for the plan created to lift the restrictions that have been implemented in the  last month or so. He has left it up to each state and territory to make their own decisions to which phase of the restrictions that they will lift and when. This is good news for Australia’s currently ailing economy because millions of workers have been out of jobs and many are currently only surviving on government handouts. However, the large amount of money that has been set aside for government handouts is not an endless supply and sooner or later, the government will run out of money to support those people. By lifting the restrictions, it means that people can go back to exercising in their gyms, partake in religious activites, and enjoy recreational activities like going to the cinema. I believe this will have a positive impact on mental health, which unfortunately has declined dramatically due to the social distancing restrictions leaving people socially isolated from their normal support networks or from losing their jobs. Sadly, the number of calls to police for domestic violence related incidents also have more than doubled in places like Melbourne, which has been in strict lock down for weeks.

In saying that, Australia has just started entering the cold, winter months, where the   threats of influenza and other illness will also be another issue to consider. By relaxing restrictions it can mean more clusters of Covid-19 are able to break out and there will not be the restrictions that have been in place to help stop it from happening. When rules are relaxed, people can become complacent again, and lead to a second spike in the number of new cases in Australia. There is the risk of many people dying from the disease, and this is especially the case for those vulnerable people, such as the elderly or those with chronic health conditions. Another issue to consider, is the risk that we will again run out of personal protective equipment that protects front line workers from contracting the Covid-19 virus and whether or not the health care system will be able to cope with the subsequent outbreaks.

The risks of benefits of lifting the restrictions put in place to stop Covid-19 is one that needs to be carefully considered and implemented. There is a need to restart the economy and to help get people back into the workforce as there is only a limited amount of time that the government will be able to support so many people. However, careful plans to ensure that a second outbreak  in Covid-19 cases doesn’t happen is also essential to have.

The Toilet Paper Returns to Shelves!

Yesterday, for the first time in about a month (since I last went to shop during special early opening of supermarkets for health care workers).. I was able to buy some TOILET PAPER!!! It was a four pack and it was expensive af, but doesn’t matter! I am just super grateful that we have toilet paper on our shelves again!! On a side note, I also managed to get a 500ml of hand sanitiser!

I am taking this as a sure sign that life is sure but surely returning back to normal.. Some elective surgeries are set to slowly recommence from next Tuesday in Australia. While travel bans are still in place for the moment, the daily number of new cases of Coronavirus in Australia is steadily dropping each day. This is great news for everyone, however it’s been dropping due to the social distancing that is being put into place.

Each business and place have their own levels of social distancing measures…for example, the Asian mart that I go to literally has no signs about social distancing… but then again, it is pretty quiet. However, when I went to my dermatology appointment today, WHOA…I felt like I was going through customs at the airport…! I wasn’t allowed into the practice without having sanitised my hands with alcohol gel, have my temperature checked, and signing a declaration that  I hadn’t been overseas in the last 14 days or to certain areas of Adelaide where there was outbreaks of Covid 19…When all was good there was lines and glass screens which separated me and the receptionist. Anyways, when I actually got to finally see the dermatologist, he didn’t even wear gloves when injecting steroids into my ear?! And there was blood everywhere?? HUH?!

Anyways, I am looking forward to the eventual reopening of public places and hopefully GYMS and BADMINTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope I am not excited too early …

 

Being Foot Shy

Basically during this time while we are in semi-lock down, I have not much to write about in my life…so please excuse me while I write about something that is probably considered quite bland for your everyday read… xD… However, it is in these times that what used to be everyday occurrences can become the highlight of your day… or the topic of your blog…

I went to the shops today to buy some work shoes…The shopping centre looked a lot different than the last time I went..  Many clothes shops, toy shops, shoe shops, jewellery shops, basically nothing that was classified as ‘essential’ was closed. It was sort of a bleak sight I suppose…but I guess one that is needed to stop people flocking to the shops to go shopping for those ‘non-essential’ items.

Luckily for me, I had checked online whether the shop I needed to go to was open. As I am on my feet all day for work, having comfortable shoes is a necessity. I was just really glad that this shop was still open, the shop’s name is ‘Athlete’s Foot’ and they measure you up for sizing and help choose for you a shoe that will help stabilise your feet or support your feet is you need it. The person who helped me was super helpful and helped recommend a comfortable yet professional looking black leather shoe. While I don’t mind buying certain things online, such as electronics, stationery, or turtle accessories. I have personally not had much luck buying clothes and shoes. If something did fit by sheer luck, I would make sure to keep buying the exact same one!

That’s why when the physical shops close, it means I won’t get much shopping done…because I am one of those people that really need to try on some clothes or shoes before buying them…because the shoe or clothes might LOOK great, but probably won’t for me….Anyway, so this “Foot technician” I think called Ben, helped me do some measurements to my feet with this “Foot scanning and recording thing” (sorry the name of it is beyond me), which tells you all sorts of things about the way you walk and the where the pressure on your feet is located. To do this scan I had to take off my shoes and socks, I couldn’t help but worry about all the germs that were on the floor and just crossed my fingers I won’t get any foot infection from walking on the ground and thing.

On a side note, for some reason today I was wearing my white duck socks…so embarrassing…I should have remembered to wear a more professional looking sock…normally no one would ever know its a duck sock with my shoes on…but anyways… LOL.. the other thing was I realised I haven’t cut my toenails for a while and eww the small nail on my right foot looks soooo gross…I felt sorry for the poor technician looking at my disgusting feet T_T. If only, they recorded and saved these measurements so that I wouldn’t have to continually take off my socks and be embarrassed. Anyways, I digress. After the testing, he brought out 3 different brands of black shoes and said all the pros and cons of each shoe. I then tried on two of the three, one on each foot and walked around in it. Both felt good and it was kind of hard to choose, it only came down to how it looked…the one on the right foot looked slightly more professional and looks less like a sports shoe than the other one…and that’s the one I decided to get…!

Tomorrow will be my first day wearing my new shoes…albeit being a bit squeaky..here’s hoping that my feet will be happier and less sore after a day at work. And that folks, is the highlight of my week. Buying some work shoes…before they also probably will shut due to COVID 19. Who would have thought life would come down to this? ? ? ? Work is literally life now.. 😦

Keep safe and keep dabbing into your elbow when you sneeze.

 

Thx. JL