The last week begins…

One week left in Adelaide.

Hmm. Times flies when you realise it is finite and not unlimited.

I had an adventurous week and I did a lot of things within then I normally would.

Caught up with old work colleagues, family, lots of badminton, gym…and even traveled to a few places I haven’t been before! I went to a small rural town about 2.5 hours drive away from Adelaide, called Port-Pirie. As I have a friend that is a pilot, we hired a small aircraft and flew there…I have never been in a small aircraft before and it was definitely a really exciting experience. I was so surprised that the landings and take offs were so much smoother and faster than I expected!

The view from up in the sky is amazing and despite having an awesome new phone camera, it doesn’t seem to do it justice. Somethings in life you just have to experience it first-hand yourself! We flew over the famous Pink Salt Lake, which kinda looked more brown than pink to me.. (It was my first time to see it)…

We had about 2.6 hours in the air…I even got to fly for a bit…While exciting at first..it is a bit more tiring than steering a car. Once we landed in Port-Pirie, we booked a cab to take us to town and we enjoyed some lunch at a place called Safavia . This is where we both tried something called a ‘Chicken Stack’…which is basically chicken with a quiche and some bacon stacked on top of it.

Post lunch we had a bit of a walk around town…there wasn’t a whole lot to do…but thee was a small museum, which looked deserted. We also walked passed a real estate sop and boy is it it a cheap!! You can get a 3 bedroom house with lots of land for well under 100,000k! To put that into perspective, a house of that size would easily be 6 or 7 times that amount in Metropolitan Adelaide.

We then walked around the railway and to a small jetty, took some photos…then it was time to head back to the aircraft in the cab.

I flew some more on the way back. It was a good experience.

Yesterday, I caught up with some old work mates in a place called Plant 4 Bowden- which as its name suggests, has many plants for sale…It also had many cool looking shops and little eateries. I wish I had discovered this little gem earlier! I have been living in Adelaide for so long, yet I have never been.

It’s funny how you only finally start to explore and enjoy somewhere when you know you are leaving.

 

Disappointed

I went back today to the laser eye surgery centre. The doctor seemed nervous as he asked me how I was before I could say “Fine”( a clear lie, since my face did not say I was fine).. he said, “Disappointed Right?”. He said it was unfortunate that the surgery had not gone fine.

I had a list of questions prepared for him about how long I needed to use the eye drops for and if I could wash my hair with shampoo! It’s been super annoying not being able to wash my hair or face…incase I injure the eye even more. Apparently, according to the doctor I have to use both eye drops until the end of the week and then the lubricant can be continued until whenever. He said, I should be able to use the contact lenses again from the following Monday…but warned it might feel more uncomfortable than normal. That does not give me any confidence at all TBH.

I said, didn’t you say that the eye drops you had prescribed prior to me getting the LASIK would ruin my contact lenses? He asked me what type do I use, and I said the hard contacts…and he said it was fine. Why is everything suddenly so contradictory? He then said glasses and contacts are fine to use until you are 40. WTH.

I asked if I could get a copy of my medical records for my own personal use and also a copy for my regular optometrist that I see. I also want a record, in case I do intend to send in a letter of complaint. I don’t think it’s alright to rush a surgery and to have me experience unnecessary anxiety and pain because they just want the $$.

He then asked me if I had received the money back,  I said no. They said to make sure I chase that up if I don’t get it in the next few days. I said okay.

I talked to my sister who had studied law in university and she said to document everything that was said (hard with my goldfish memory) and perhaps we would write a letter of complaint.

I personally wouldn’t want anyone to go through what I did. I don’t think LASIK is as good or as magical as they make it out to be. How many others have had to go through these botched surgeries? I can’t be the only one right?

-Angry

Lasik failure :(

I was so worried about post surgery complications, I didn’t even consider that the procedure would be a failure…

Prior to the surgery, I was given the choice to take some sleeping tablets to help “relax me”.. and of course I took it.. I was nervous as hell.. but little did I know what would happen next.

I don’t know how often this happens, but I was all gowned up with the hairnet, shoe covers, and ready to get lasik. I had to go through numerous stinging eyedrops, face disinfected, text over my eyes…and then they propped openmy eyes with something so I couldn’t blink.. that was a bit painful. I had to stare at a green light above me that sort of suctioned onto my eye. It was uncomfortable, there was drilling sounds, I was scared shitless. I think I knew something was wrong because the machine kept coming off and back on to my eye…what felt like an eternity later (but was probably a minute later), the doctor aborted the surgery. He had made two incisions in the flaps of my eye to try lift them, but apparently couldn’t because the shape of me eyes were weird. But mate, aren’t you supposed to check that pre-surgery? At that time I was too drowsy to say anything and really remember much.. I was taken to a recovery area with a ned.. and given an icepack for my now inflammed rye.. they were talking about there being bubbles in my eyes. WTF.

The doctor pulled me back into his room and tried to explain what happened, but he used all this medical jargon (about eyes) which I didn’t understand and was too sleepy to ask about. Why do they do that? After drugging you up telling you all this important stuff? He took out the after lasik pack which had been shown to me by a optometrist assistant prior to going into the surgery. He chucked away the antibiotic eyedrops and said “You won’t need this”. But what if I do? You have made two cuts in my eye! I can see the blood lines there and it freaks me out.

I can’t remember the last time I felt so disappointed, dissatisfied , disgusted, depressed, and yet damn angry. I have been knocked out the rest of the day. All that damn anxiety and dread leading up to the surgery day…

They also made me pay upfront BEFORE i had the surgery. What scammers. In the end they apparently “refunded” it to me on my credit card.. but honestly I can’t see it there yet…I won’t let them get away with that one. 😤😤😤

Some of my friends have told me to sue them for medical negligence. Whilst it sounds like s annoying and long-winded expensive process… I wouldn’t want anyone else to go through what I did and who knows how long my eyes will take to recover? They didn’t even tell me if I can wear contacts again.. do I have to wear sunglasses everywhere? Am I not allowed to wash my hair with shampoo? Which is what their information sheets say, but they didn’t write one up for botched surgeries.

A mixture of guilt and sadness also lies within my mind. Why did I want so bad to not have glasses? I guess they might be the safest option now…

-Sad

Lasik Surgery

 

Just had an appointment to check my suitability for lasik eye surgery last week…It feels surreal and almost like a pyramid scheme…No glasses or contacts for the rest of my life? Too good to be true surely.

The whole appointment from start to finish took about 2 hours and I had to see three different health professionals.

The first was technician who did all the initial tests and photographs that I thought normally the optometrist would do.. Then I went to see the optometrist to review those results. Then lastly, the final boss…Saw the eye surgeon who went through what were my options and how much it would cost.

It iS expensive..$3000 to do each eye and to utterly honest I am scared shitless of them cutting into my eye and then use laser to burn off stuff in my eye. The eye surgeon booked me in a for an appointment, because he knew I would be too chicken to…and said I could confirm or cancel it the following week. He gave me some eyedrops, the brand name being FML (lol name) and I was instructed to use that 4 times a day until the scheduled surgery. I was to not wear contacts for 2 days prior to the surgery and no make up etc on the day of surgery. He also gave me some Pregabalin capsules that I was instructed to take 1 hour before the appointment, which apparently is supposed to calm the nerves.

I feel like if I don’t do it now, I might never do it ever. Then I will be chained to glasses and contacts for the rest of my life…And worried about infections..losing a contact…or breaking them and having to pay so much to replace it.

Have any of you guys had lasik done?

Things to think about when renting a place

Looking for accommodation is such a headache. But honestly, I think the more headache now, the less headache later…Finding the (near) perfect place will make a life that is more comfortable and you aren’t stuck in a lease with terrible house mates.

I am not a big fan of share houses, but I have lived in one before (in Japan), which wasn’t too bad! But, this is Australia…Melbourne…I feel like I am not ready for sharing my life with others who love alcohol or partying…

I have come up with my own list of things that I want in a rental property:

-Own ensuite bathroom and shower…I like the ability to taking a shower when I want..and I don’t want to keep moving all my cosmetics and hair washing stuff every time.. LOL and I am scared of germs.

-No-Smoking!! Or drugs! Or alcoholics! I just can’t stand the smell of smoke, drugs, or alcohol.

-Not very sociable people please…I don’t want to be kept up by party animals. I need my beauty sleep.

-I don’t mind pets…I actually would love to live with a dog or cat…as long as they are toilet trained…don’t eat my stuff, and friendly …xD

-Clean people…people who clean up after themselves…I HATE cleaning up other people’s messes and sharing a place with someone dirty…eeek

-If in a share house, I def want my own lock on my door…because I don’t want to worry about people going into my room when I am not around.

-Private parking on-site (preferably) a bit worried about street parking…because apparently there is higher crime rate in Melbourne.

-Heating and cooling.. I am super sensitive to cold and hold temperatures..LOL

-Safe neighbourhood and low crime rate..I am willing to pay more to feel safe!!

-Shops nearby for easy access to groceries.

-Nice restaurants nearby for takeaway for those lazy days.

-Quiet street and not too many cars or near a railway/airport…etc.

-Furnished…please..I don’t really want to fork out all that money to buy furniture when I am renting and also not sure how long I will stay in Melbourne

-My budget is max $250 a week..LOL…I feel like I am going to be broke renting and living in Melbourne T_T

-Having public transport nearby would be handy if I don’t want to drive to the city etc.

-Nice friendly neighbours…

These are personally the things I want to look for in a share house…I have such high expectations..I think I am better to rent my own place. LOL.

Impostor Syndrome

Impostor Syndrome is thinking that you aren’t qualified or good enough when in a position or when applying for one…but in fact you are. I guess it may tie in with having an inferiority complex…thinking others are always better than yourself.

I believe many working professionals are in the same boat as me…thinking and feeling that they have no idea what they are doing and are worried that someday someone will expose them for the fraud that they are.

No matter how many exams I have passed or feedback that I receive…I always feel like I am ‘Pretending to be a pharmacist‘. Pretending to know more than I do not. Our minds and our worries trick us to thinking that we are the only one who is feeling that way…but that is not true. Sure, some people may seem like they are naturally ‘born’ with talents and traits that may lead them to be good at something. But surely, they would have most likely had to work very hard to get there and perhaps they also feel like they are pretending as well.

Fake it till you make it. That’s what people advise you to do…but it’s hard you know..it’s scary pretending to be something you are not, but actually you are. I believe it’s particularly bad when you are about to start a new position that requires you to have prior experience and skills already…it makes you feel like your prior knowledge and experiences isn’t enough and indeed that is how I am feeling moving into my next position. I know it won’t be easy, but I know one thing is that I will work hard and do my best. Because, as someone once said, if it was easy, then everyone would be doing it.

 

 

I am big big girl in a big big world

There was this song that my sister and I liked when we were younger called “I am a big big girl in a big big world”...and that’s how I am feeling right now.

I am just staring at the word BIG and it looks so weird. lol.

I just got a call from the interstate job I had an interview and I got told that they would like to offer the position to me- as long as I pass my police clearance and working with children checks etc.. !!

Exciting news…It hasn’t even sunk in yet and I am already stressing about how I am going to move myself and all my shit down to Melbourne…

Speaking of Melbourne, it is currently the Covid-19 hotspot in Australia…it seems like we have a smaller but surely a second surge of cases in Melbourne. There are currently some areas in which there are higher numbers of Covid Cases in Melbourne that are under lockdown, while the rest are free to roam with restrictions.

Adelaide, however is back to normal ..almost. There are still some restrictions, but at least most things are open already.

There are so many things to think about in the move..where will I stay, how will I get there, should I bring my car? WHERE WILL I PLAY BADMINTON?!

But anyway, I will worry about that more tomorrow.

Priorities in Life

I think I have said it before, but there is a time and place for everything.

There is a time to save, a time to spend, a time to invest, a time to just work your ass off.

Everyone harps on about work-life balance, but what and who really determines what value you put on each area? Is there a perfect number? I think it is more a subjective thing and it will change through the seasons of your life.

I believe our priorities change as we grow…In high school, all I ever wanted to do was graduate and be done with school. Then in Uni, I just wanted so badly to pass my exams and to finish my course. I started working and then all I could think about is how much I missed my friends at uni and all the free time I used to have.

People my age are getting married, having kids, working and planning their life.

I suppose it comes down to our values to what we think is important and that occupies our time.

Quiet Before the Storm

After six months of working 6-7 days a week. Suddenly I am back to one day a week.

Scary. What should I do with all this spare time?

Of course I need to job hunt and keep doing interviews.

But, still so much time.

So I have a few things I am thinking to work on or do during this time.

  1. Being able to cook edible, easy, and semi-healthy meals for myself.
  2. Make sure I am up to date with my CPD (Continuing Professional Development) points for this year! We need to complete 40 CPD points as a year as a pharmacist.
  3. Aim to update daily with quality on this blog! This will include scheduled and unscheduled posts.
  4. Start doing recorded live interviews for my (almost forgotten) podcast! I have a few ideas of regular everyday people that I want to interview for my podcast.
  5. Work out 4 times a week and lose that post-covid 19 fat T_T!!
  6. Catch up with my nephew, sister, aunty, and uncle!
  7. Try to grow something. Flowers, cucumber, Carrot. Anything. Except mold. No Mold please.
  8. Think and plan my goals for the rest of the year and next year. I.e. financial goals, Shares goals, and etc.
  9. Finally have some time to clear out the junk in the kitchen, bathroom, and do I even want to touch the living room?!
  10. Get in some solid restful sleep.  CHILLAX. Destress and hopefully my resting heart rate will go back down to ~60  instead of the 72 it is now 😦

 

Here’s hoping that I will make the most of the time I have between now and my next job… 🙂

Financially Literate

Lately, I have been doing some adult learning (imo). I have been trying to learn more about money through various podcasts on money. AND BOY is there a lot of things I don’t know… As a young one, I have never been that interested in money and my parents did not teach me much about it, except that it was precious and we didn’t have much. *sad face*

What even is Super?? How does it even work??

Through the last year and a bit, I have encountered terms like Salary Sacrifice, Life Insurance, Bonds, ETFS, mortage brokers, credit scores, and Stocks. I think I’ve grown up a bit now that I have become interested in money, or should I say in the fancy adult word, finance.

Studying in the health sector for 5 years has allowed me to become health literate, maybe a bit too much (those wrong self-diagnoses LOL). I did not understand why some people had poor health literacy and make such bad health decisions (every 1st generation child of a migrant would understand). I have always thought that was sufficient enough to keep me healthy and sustain me through life. However, I have only just realised I am seriously financially illiterate (and many of my friends are too)! I have never really did any check up on my money and just thought putting in the bank and getting a little interest was enough to sustain me for life. LOL.

I have realised, that if you want to look after your finances well, you need to take some time and think about what your saving goals you are aiming for and to make a budget (of some sort). You need to think about where you want to invest your money, because leaving it in the bank, while it is safe, it typically has low interest rates, and hence low returns.

Your super fund is basically your retirement fund, as a young kid in my first job, I always scowled at how money from my pay went into this “SUPER” fund that I couldn’t access until I was like 67. BLEH. What if I didn’t even live to that ripe age? Gimme my money now! Is what I probably thought. But, when I am old and wrinkly, and when I get to receive that money in my fund, hopefully I will be able to thank my younger self for working so damn hard for all those years to build a better retirement future. I don’t really know how supers work, but in my limited understanding I think they use your money and a good company hopefully will use it to invest and grow the super. However, for those with multiple super accounts, they might be paying a whole bunch of fees that they are unaware of.

There is still much to learn about money and finance and surprisingly, it is becoming more interesting and appealing to learn about money. $$

I ask my self, Have I stepped another step towards this holy adulthood? As I sit on a chair wearing my snoopy PJs and thinking about how it would be great to not go to work tomorrow. *Sad face*

The Breaking Point

I think we all have a limit.

A point where just one small thing can put you over the edge.

Something small that usually wouldn’t bother you.

But you have had enough.

I think you know it’s happening, even when you try to convince yourself everything is okay.

People think you are fine when you are barely holding yourself together.

You try to brush it away, pretend it is not real…BUT IT IS there and it eats away like you like an internal parasite.

The parasite is eating away at your and slowly it takes over your whole body.

Slowly you become an empty shell…Where you feel nothing, care about nothing, and do things you didn’t care about.

It’s a ticking timebomb and someday…you are gonna explode.

Then you will know.

It’s too late.

You’ve reached your breaking point.

Trump the Trouble Maker

I am sure many of you will agree with me, if you heard anything that came out of Donald Trump mouth during Covid-19, it would be pure trash.

His recent statement about him taking hydroxychloroquine , a drug that was used to treat Malaria and now primarily for Rheumatoid Arthritis. His reasoning was that he believes it can ward off or prevent Coronavirus… Despite clinical trials still not proving this as effective, he decides to go against medical advice and to take it and to tell that to the public. I can only imagine how many people are going to follow in his footsteps and get their hands on some hydroxychloroquine and how many additional medication misadventures may happen as a result.

My question is, how did he even get his hands on some hydroxychloroquine? I am presuming in America you would still need a prescription for something like that? Shame on the doctor and the pharmacist that is providing that for him, especially for a off-label use that hasn’t even been shown to be effective. In my humble opinion, the benefits do not outweigh the risks for him to take it. It’s not even like Trump is on the front line (i.e. Health care worker) or has a high chance of being exposed to the virus. I dislike the way that he has basically contradicts whatever the advice from his advisers. Who put this clown in charge of America? Yes, he would make a great comedian, but NO he does not make a great president.

I wish someone would ban him from making any public statements, because everything he says is a joke. Sadly, some people take him seriously and have been seriously harmed.

God Bless America and May you get a real President soon 😦 (Just looked it up, next election seems to be on 3rd of Nov…Good luck until then)

 

Pandemic Ponderings

Just reflecting on how life is changing in the last few days have made me realise how much I have changed during this pandemic. Prior to the pandemic which led to a toilet paper shortage in Australia, I have never tried using a flushable toilet wipe. I have always been a plain jane toilet paper user…I am not even game to use those fancy bidet toilets in Japan…I’ve just been a big toilet paper fan (till now). However, this pandemic has made me discover the wonders and the satisfaction of using a flushable wipe, especially after a heavy meal (if you know you know).

Since toilet paper has been back on shelves, for some ODD REASON I can’t find the flushable wipes as easily in the supermarkets anymore! I am hooked! But, obviously, the supermarket may have decreased buying the wipes since toilet paper is back. Instead of the toilet paper hunt, I am not hunting for these sacred flushable wipes. Oh so expensive, but as it says on the box, ‘Leaves you feeling Shower-Fresh’. If you haven’t tried it before, you really should get your hands on some and then you will understand what I mean. Contrary to some people’s fears, I don’t believe they block the toilet drain, I could be wrong but they are supposed to ‘disperse’ in water somehow.

Another pondering that I have, is whether or not I still need my gym membership!?! I have my own yoga mat now and I have cleared out enough space in my room to do exercise AND cleared enough photos from my mirror to be able to see through it. It’s so comfortable and easy to work out from home with Blogpilates or some other Youtube Instructor… I feel like life is going to start changing back to how it was and I feel like it will take time to adjust to ANOTHER new normal again…

Though I miss seeing my friends at badminton gatherings, to be honest. Not much has changed, I didn’t go out much before and I don’t go out now. BUT I guess during the pandemic, there is less FOMO for me because everyone else is staying in too. HAHA? In a way, it’s a plus.

I am going to be taking my first exam online through a Proctor Website which is going to be exciting and scary…but a new experience none the less.

I have also confirmed that indeed my thumb is not green and is probably black. The seedling that I planted in my front garden, has not been able to sprout! I think it possibly has died!?!?  Ohwell, at least I tried. A for Effort.

I have learnt that there are many more shops I can avoid going into, by shopping online and taking advantage of their FREE SHIPPING!! Many websites have lowered minimum buy to qualify for free shipping!! I just feel like it saves a lot of time, rather than going into a shop and realising they don’t have what you want..!

I’ve also had a few phone calls from the GP instead of proper face to face meetings and I actually don’t find it too bad! It can be a bit awkward with the unexplained sudden silences, but it is much more convenient for someone as time-poor as me.

 

These are the things I have learnt and experienced for the first time during Covid-19, how has your life changed?

Health Care Heroes?

I am somewhat conflicted on the special treatment that ‘Health care workers’ have been receiving during this pandemic. While I think it is great that people are acknowledging the blood, sweat, and tears that happens in the health care industry and how tough and risky it can be…I feel somewhat guilty, almost, because there are so many other essential workers that aren’t receiving recognition for their commitment and hard work. Even as a health care professional, I am just doing my job…and I am getting paid for it! So I feel a bit bad that others are just doing their job, but not getting the recognition they deserve too.

I have mentioned in previous posts, the perks that have been on offer for health care workers during the Covid-10. Free soup, free coffee, discounted food, free parking in hospitals, free public transport, VIP early access to supermarkets on certain days of the week…and recently I heard they were giving free road side assist until the end of the year for AAMI customers. Thank you for acknowledging the hard-working health care professions who continue to go to work day in and day out, and they are unable to ‘work from home’, where it is safe…because our work revolves around patients and being onsite. It’s almost like token days like Valentines Day, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day…these days where you show love and appreciation for your parents or your lover. BUT, does that mean on all the other ‘normal’ day of the year, you won’t show your love an appreciations? I feel like it should be a permanent thing and not just a temporarily we finally acknowledge your importance to society kind of thing. Hope that makes sense.

In saying that, while health care workers are on the front line and incredibly important to fighting this Covid-19…I feel bad for the other ‘essential workers’ that are keeping the country running too. There’s not much love for those truck drivers who continue to keep food getting to all parts of Australia, the taxi and bus drivers for transporting people, the postie that has been working hard to deliver our letters and packages that we’ve ordered online… Then there are those food delivery drivers who are delivering food to those who might not be able to leave their home and are helping keep restaurants running during this time. There are the police, firemen, and the politicians who are working hard on planning for the recovery of Australia to become a stronger and better nation. I am sure I am forgetting a WHOLE lot of important people…the supermarket staff, cafe staff, farmers, electricians, receptionists, petrol station workers….SO MANY. We have to remember to THANK them too for continuing to work and keep this country running during the pandemic.

So, in conclusion, no hate towards health professionals or myself…but I do believe there are many ESSENTIAL people who may not be getting the recognition they deserve for doing their job as well. I am just doing my job, so why should I get praised for that?

Your thoughts are more than welcome.

Random Rants: Generous Giving

 

Even as a child, I was always a giver. It was ingrained into me from a young age from my mother, “Why get fat by eating it all by yourself, when you can share it around and not be fat?”. With that mentality, I would share whatever snacks or food I had with others, I felt extremely uncomfortable to be the only one eating. If no one else was eating, I didn’t want to eat. It made me feel like a little selfish pig and gave me this really guilty feeling. I am not saying that is a healthy thing to have! Now, I am almost the opposite, I can’t stand the sound of people chewing or eating really loudly, it’s so off-putting and distracting. But I do still like to bring food to share and to give to others…

 

Not trying to say I am a saint or anything, but when I was younger I was sympathetic the beggars I saw on the street, despite not having money, I would try to give them something useful like food or a pocket hand warmer…  When I finally had a job in university, on my 22nd birthday, I remember signing up to sponsor a child in Africa who had the same birthday as me. Despite sponsoring her for many years and receiving the periodic update letters from her, I never responded to a single one. I was like an anonymous sponsee that never seemed to have time to write a letter to someone I didn’t know.

 

One day, my brother told me, instead of just throwing money to random organisations and where the money goes into paying for the staff working in the organisation in a place far away. What about instead of focussing on the people across the world, what about the people around you? This led me into a phase where I was trying to find the right place to volunteer and tried all these different places. I felt while the work I did there was alright for the moment, I felt there was so much more potentially that I could do.  There was so much I wanted to do, but so little time. I loved animals, I loved kids, I cared about the disadvantaged, people with disabilities, the medically sick…I wanted to go on medical mission trips across the world and help people in development countries, myself. That was my dream, I do still hope to do that someday. But reality hits, this all needs money. It doesn’t come for free…to get there I need to study hard to get into the degree, I need to get experience, and become qualified. I guess you can call it perhaps my calling in life for the desire to help others and to give.

It’s not always just about giving money, but thinking what can you actually DO and just to be kind to those around you, even if they are hard to love. Be wise with where you invest your money and time and don’t just throw it around blindly, also don’t just keep all the money for yourself!