Home style Pumpkin Soup

Ever since I was little, I’ve been addicted to pumpkin soup and I am not even sure why. Might be the salt in it…for some reason I am addicted to salty foods! At work, my colleague and I have a soup each day, with the exception of one day last week in which our kettle stopped working and also took half the pharmacy’s electricity along with it.

I’ve always just loved pumkin soup and whenever it was on sale and when it wasn’t-( esp during the Covid-19 stockpiling saga) I would always have enough soup on hand in my locker at work and in the kitchen in my corner to last me for days. I’ve tried other flavours of soup, but nothing really tasted as good as I thought pumpkin soup tasted. I tried chicken noodle curry, mush room, ham and pea, I just didn’t like the artificial taste in these other flavours. That’s until one day I swapped a pumpkin for my colleague’s DUTCH CURRY. Now every time I have an instant pumkin soup, I am craving a Dutch Curry. I am not sure how to describe a Dutch curry and I’ve never tried the real thing, but it really hits the spot you know?! It’s a little spicy, but not too spicy..and it has rice and peas in it! Just enough to allow me to last till lunch time. It’s super cold in Adelaide these days… hot soup is the best!

Suddenly I am no longer buying my pumpkin soup, but Dutch Curry.

I have changed so much this year. What’s happening to me?!!?

Recipe for Burnout

Covid is a great excuse to become burnout in my opinion. Asides from work, I usually make time to go to the gym around 3 times a week for classes and try to play badminton 1-2 times a week. I would visit my elderly Aunt and Uncle whenever I had time and also visit my sister and her baby whenever I could. Due to Covid restrictions, badminton, gym, and social outings were gone from the calendar and I didn’t visit my aunt and uncle as much because I could be a risk to them. Take away all the things I did out of work, it just left me with work..and more work. Oh yeah, also study… I am almost finishing my graduate certificate in disability studies…

If anything, I had to work more hours, longer days without break. So of course, I am not a great machine that can keep going and going. I stopped working. Literally. Couldn’t work, because I had become so sick. Sick of the unpaid overtime, sick of not being able to say no to an extra shift because I felt guilty, sick of looking after sick people. It’s a real thing.. this vicarious trauma…

Due to the stress at work, I was so exhausted when I got home, but I would still force myself to do some work out. Gone were all the things that I had preached on this blog and to others… Healthy Eating habits? I craved and gave into KFC every time the migraines came back…I have never spent so much money on SNACKS and they aren’t all healthy snacks either :(. I have been so busy at work, I don’t even drink enough water because that would mean having to go to the toilet!! I am just overeating snacks… and it’s terrible! I’ve also been splurging on things I don’t necessarily need with my new credit card.. Oh..what I have done.

Anyways, I am not writing all this JUST to complain about my situation, because I know we have it pretty good in Australia. It will get better, I hope, because the situation is ever changing! Just as fast as we were put into restrictions, the restrictions are being lifted faster than I imagined too. Life will become better soon. But until then..Just keep fighting on, because it can only get better from now.  Take time to look after your mental health, have you done something just for you today?

Maybe, it’s okay, that I am acting the way I am now…As long as I realise that I can’t stay like that forever! Now that I am aware, I will be more conscious when I go pass KFC or purchase something I REALLY do not need.