Treating yourself Kindly

I find that I am the harshest critic upon myself… when faced with uncertainty, I often doubt myself.. my qualifications and my ability to get the job done.

Amongst other things, I am quick to compare myself to others and hence, usually feel bad for myself. 😔😔 But what for? Everyone is different, unique, and has their own journey. There isn’t any point comparing your journey to someone else’s. That’s what I SHOULD think.. but anyway, other people will do it, even if you don’t.

But you just gotta drown that thought out and don’t pay attention. Just do your best! That’s all you can do. 😊

Week five of our stage 4 lockdown… we are due for review on September 13th.! Fingers and toes crossed we will have some restrictions lifted ✌️✌️🤞🤞🤞

Episode Three of Working in Melbourne up!

I haven’t been very consistent with the naming of the podcast .. is it even a podcast? More like a lazy way to diary my life… my sad Iso-life.

Click here for Episode Three!

I promise to write a proper blog post soon! P.S. adulting achievement unlocked! Finally managed to make the skin on my salmon CRISPY!! 😍😍😍

The journey to becoming a pilot -podcast!

Hey guys, I recorded the first of I hope many .. podcast interviews with people studying or doing different professions! I hope you enjoy this first podcast and sorry for all the background noise.

New Zealand: Things to do

I am back. With part two of the NZ related blog posts. I have tried putting the photos in a slideshow…hopefully that is more useful than the Mosaic with descriptions.

 Mildred Sound Full-Day Tour

Apparently a must-go…and we did…We had to travel for almost 5 hours on the bus there and 5 hours back to get there from Queenstown. During the time we went to Queenstown, they had only just reopened up the road for Tour Buses ONLY…It can be damaged and closed for a few days because of flooding (I think)… Apparently, there are more rainy days in Milfred than dry days…

Mirror Lake: This was one of the stops we made on the way to Milfred Sound and it is super pretty and worth making the trip for the photos…! This was one of the highlights of the day tour, to be honest! I didn’t even know we were going to be stopping here…The name ‘Mirror Lake’ suits it perfectly…as you can see the image of the mountain reflected so clearly onto the motionless and still water. It’s so calm…so Zen

Milford Sound Cruise:

The cruise was roughly 2 hours long and the package we got included lunch… Our boat was a Jucy Cruise Boat…and to be honest…I don’t know why I was expecting a buffet-style lunch…but man I was severely disappointed! We all got either a vegetarian meal of rice and vegetables…or a chicken calzone… and everyone got a kids pop top…Let’s just say I did not finish my food…and I am glad I had eaten snacks along the way on the trip. My friend and I went to the front of the boat to take photos…and when the boat came to a waterfall we thought we would be safe…waterfalls are just light rain isn’t it? No…we got drenched from top to bottom… 😦 was the photo worth it? Probably not! haha But the captain of the boat was telling us…there is a folklore that this water will make you 10 years younger…given I already look like I am 18…I think I am good. haha.

For the next waterfall, we went to…I smartly stayed inside the boat and took a photo from there instead. As you can see it looks like the boat went in a terrible storm! Everyone that braved staying outside was fully drenched…even worse off than the first waterfall. LOL.

 

Milfred Sound Cruise was great for the photos…but I mainly just soaked in the views..as it was quite windy outside and I had no phone strap or anything I was afraid to take photos at the front of the boat, but luckily my friend took plenty of awesome photos and I have included some on the blog.

Preparation for getting off the boat was a hassle…The captain announced half an hour before we went back on land that now would be an ideal time to go to one of the two toilets on the boat before landing…because when we landed we need to go back on the bus ASAP. So anyway, being girls my friend and I lined up for literally half an hour to get in one of those precious toilets. So, if you are a girl, make sure you go before the rush before the landing.

Glenorchy Horse Riding -Half day trip (2 hour horse trek)

A bus picked us up near our hotel…and picked up several others that were going to Glenorchy too. The bus trip from Queenstown was about an hours drive away. The tour that we went with had their own stables about another 15 minutes away from the main town that we stopped briefly in to let others off to do other activities in the same area.

The horses in NZ seemed huge in comparison to the ones I had ridden in Adelaide…Maybe it was just that the one I rode was an ex-racing horse?! I forgot the name of my horse….but he was a bit temperamental and had a bit of a mind of his own…but that’s alright…It was fun..and I didn’t get kicked off.  We were taught how to instruct the horse to move forward, how to stop, and how to lead them to go left or right. We were also instructed on how to stand up in the stirrups to remove pressure from kidneys when they pooped or peed.

The trek was nice, gentle, but to be honest the two-hour trek is a bit too long…I think the one hour trip would be sufficient enough. On our horse ride, we saw a few birds and some wild rabbits..other than that we didn’t encounter any other wildlife, unfortunately.

 

Kiwi Conservation Park:

Entrance to this park is expensive, but all proceeds go into maintaining the park, so I guess you can see it as a donation. My friend and I were curious to have a look at the Kiwi bird, which we haven’t seen before. Unfortunately, Kiwi’s are nocturnal so their habitat was in almost complete darkness and you couldn’t really take photos of them. They are an adorable and unique bird though! A super long beak!

Skyline Gondola:

Paragliding – G-Force, make sure you call before you go up to the top because they won’t refund your luge ride, unfortunately. That’s what happened to us, we were not told by the Viator company that we had to call the company at 8:30am of the morning of our flight to check if weather conditions were suitable for paragliding…we found out when we got up to the top… A return ride on the gondola was about $41! Not cheap… I was quite disappointed that we weren’t able to go :(, we, however, got a full refund as it was not our fault that the trip was cancelled.

Luge Ride:

I think it’s a fairly unique experience and pretty fun. Sort of like driving a little car that does not use any electricity, but moves from gravity. Watch out for kids that overtake you though… A family-friendly activity.

 

Park Run-NZ

Park Runs are timed 5km run across the world on Saturday morning and NZ is no exception. The run is held in the park in the city…While I didn’t run, I walked the track and enjoyed the views. This is a free event and is something you could consider doing if you have nothing to do on a Saturday morning.

City

On certain days, there are small market stalls that are set up in the city. A regular busker there and his singing sheepdog ‘Happy’, is incredibly cute. There are many delicious restaurants in the city, please see my other post on food.

Hiking: 

New Zealand is so beautiful…there are numerous number of walking trails around the city that lead to amazing views,

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Almost the end of 2019…

I think it’s time for a reflection.

Big things, small things, decisions… risks, investments..friendships, relationships, money, time, study, work, career….goals and dreams.

If only we were able to do it all and achieve it all… Sometimes you feel that one life-time is not enough. You feel like there is much to chase after, yet you also fail to appreciate what you have achieved already and what you have.

Sometimes I feel regret at what I sacrifice in order to get closer to what I want to achieve. I question myself, is it worth it? To be so driven towards something that gives you temporary joy when you achieve. I am somewhat afraid that when I finally reach the goals and final destination to where I want to go, I fear it won’t make me as happy as I had hoped.

This fear… will it stop me from trying? I think I will regret most not trying hard enough. But even though i am striving towards my goal…I am also trying to pursue my career goals… and then there’s my bucket list of things I wanna do before I am 30.

I think I am going through what I call a “one third of life crisis”. Not sure what I want, but everyone around me seems to me talking of marriage, getting married, having kids, buying houses… and then there’s me.. not sure what I want to do. I am sure I am not the only one who feels that way though… life is meant to be more simple than we make it. We complicate it by over thinking, by worrying about what hasn’t happened yet… or worrying that something will never happen.

FOMO is so real. I try to avoid it, aside from Linked In and a fake FB account.. I don’t go on social media. But even in the brief moments I have gone on these apps…I’ve managed to make myself feel bad.. I compared myself to this person because they got into medicine this year… oh and this one got a “Senior Pharmacist” position, even though I graduated first!! Or this one got into the hospital residency program…so much to compare myself to…you get my gist. I know I am supposed to feel grateful for where I am, so many would kill to be in my position..two well-paying jobs… good work place… mostly good colleagues…

But sometimes, your brain just shuts down and just wants to run away from it all and just have a break, before your break.

Priorities

I had an argument with someone who was once a friend…I was constantly trying to make plans to meet up with them or talk to them, yet they were always TOO BUSY to even talk. They would take forever to reply to simple texts asking if we were meeting up that day or not. It was just getting really annoying and frustrating for the lack of communication.

Call me pushy or too clingy…but honestly, sometimes you do wonder why you even bother? If the other person is putting in zilch effort towards a relationship that is one-sided, what even is the point?

Apparently, they are ‘too busy’, apparently their schedule is ‘too unpredictable’. But honestly, with a bit of communication and planning, there is always time. But, that’s only if you want to make time.  I got angry because I know that I have been incredibly busy and run down lately…but I do try my best to spend time with loved ones…because they are the ones who keep me sane, to help me relax. It wasn’t always like that, I used to just concentrate on work and study and no play. But that is no way to live.

We make our own schedule…essentially we choose what we do. Sometimes we feel like that isn’t the case. Despite knowing this, I still complain that I work too much…13 out of 14 days…but that’s IS MY OWN CHOICE and I have my reason to do so, but I don’t use that as an excuse for not meeting up someone when they ask me. Friendships and those close to us are a treasure. Those that are real friends will stick around when the going gets tough…when you are feeling down…and sad. If you neglect your friendships and just concentrate on something like your career, or earning money, or just one single relationship…and neglect the rest. If you lose that one thing, you have nothing.

I get angry at people like that because I was once like that…and still like that to a small extent. I know I need to change, it’s hard I KNOW. I am super guilty of just want to put my all into something. I am the first to compare myself to others and want to have what others have. Those who seem like they are succeeding in what they do, do you see all their sacrifices to get to where they are? Do you see their blood, sweat, tears, and the loneliness that they face?

I guess it all comes down to your priorities and your values. Maybe career is all you care about and is what you live for. But for me, I don’t want to go to the end of my life and realise, yes I got the job that I wanted…I had so much money…but I had no one with me in my final days of life.

I have a wall sticker on my wall it says, “The best things in life are the People we love, the places we’ve been, and the memories we’ve made along the way.”

and the other stick on my other wall says “If you can dream it, you can do it”.

Two very conflicting values that I hold strongly too. I want to live my dreams, but I also treasure every moment with my friends and family. Because they are truly the best things in life to me.

 

Random rants: Hectic Lives

Do you ever stop and think about how you coped with things in the past?

I sometimes wonder why I get so many migraines, headaches, and sicknesses. Then I kind of get reminded that maybe I am not eating properly, not sleeping properly, and probably doing one too many things at once.

Stress is an interesting thing and it can change over time and comes in all types of shapes and sizes.

I was reflecting back on my undergraduate university days and remembered that every day was full of things to do.

I was studying full-time, and in pharmacy we had quite a lot of contact hours…we had practicals that were 5 hours long, workshops, lectures, etc etc. It was a hectic life, on top of that I also worked two days a week in a cafe for 3 years, a retail pharmacy for one year, and in a hospital in my final year. I remembered playing in a team for the weekly badminton competition, I also remembered being captain of my very own Vets team. Then there were the religious commitments I used to have, I was in the church band, and they had weekly rehearsals on Saturdays…as well as the actual ‘performance’ days on Sundays which took up most of the day. I used to spend almost every day before a test or an exam studying at uni until well after 10 pm..to then wake up the next day at 6:30am and do it all again.

 

I remember one day, before an important test..I was studying late at night at the university..revising.. and I got a phone call. It was my mum. She said Grandmother had passed away. I was in shock. This couldn’t be happening! Not now…I just can’t deal with it…I couldn’t study any more after that. I don’t know how I managed to make myself go to that test and do so well… In hindsight, I could have applied to defer that test if I wanted to…but I didn’t.

That experience woke me up a little, it made me feel all sorts of feelings. It made me feel guilty most of all. WHY didn’t I spend more time with my grandmother when she was alive? Why did I prioritise STUDYING so much? Why did I want to do well in university when I could have just got through with average grades…Why was I so afraid of NOT doing well? Of failing? Where were my priorities? I don’t know why I worked so hard and I don’t know if it was worth it? It’s so easy to get obsessed with things for me…I was obsessed with badminton…with music…with drawing…with anime…I don’t know. Passion? Entertainment? I don’t know. Honestly…now  I am probably just obsessed with working and getting money. For what? Do I think a house or holiday will make me happy? Maybe. Maybe for a little bit. But then what, I’ll be sad again?

I have to constantly remind myself, life is short. We don’t know when our end is. What will we regret when we are older that we wished we did more?

I ask myself this because there are many decisions we have to make. There are many pathways we could go…but it all takes risks…There are some many “I WISHES” and hopefully we can get to them before it is ‘Too late’ and anyways I am not even sure where this post is going anymore…

 

 

 

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Rainbows

For the last two days..while I was driving to work I saw a rainbow in the sky.
On the first day that I saw it…I was like..is this a sign that everything is going to be okay? That despite all the decisions, changes, and stresses- will it really be okay?
Today, I saw the rainbow again and I felt kind of angry at it…’ Why’ I asked myself, are you giving me false hope? Is everything going to get better? Why does it feel like it is getting worse?
I think something is wrong when you are angry at something that beautiful in the sky.

I have been reminded lately, that I am responsible for my own happiness..and I need to stop letting circumstances, other people, and things from biting away my own happiness.

I am somewhat responsible for all the stress I have been feeling…overcommitting to too many things and somehow believing I can do it all well. I can make a choice not to stress myself out and put down some things…if I wanted..but I still choose not to…being undecided.

Life is a game analogy -Part 2- Sushi Go Party

 

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Have you heard of this game? I recently played it with some friends over the Easter Long weekend that just passed! It’s actually really really fun…even though I am incredibly bad at it. 

Despite its initial deceptive cuteness and looking like a light hearted game, it can soon become very competitive as we try to win the race to the be the first at the finish line and you also need some sort of maths skills to add and subtract in this game. Upon reflection after playing this game, I believe that this could teach me, and maybe you a life lesson or two.

Before getting into that, I will explain how this game works, for those who haven’t played before!

Each player starts off with seven cards in their hands, then when the game starts you put  down one card you want to keep and pass the rest of your hand to the person on your left. You receive a new hand from the person on your right…and you repeat..choose a card and then pass the rest on. The round finishes when every one has put down 7 cards and there are no more cards being passed around.

The cards all represent different amounts of points you can get or lose and the description of their points is at the bottom. For example, if you have two tempura cards-you get 5 points (if you just have one you get nothing). There are also eight rules that have been decided upon at the start of the game-that is in the middle of the board. These rules decide how much special combinations of cards are worth…also there are also rewards and penalties for having the most of a card or the least. For example, in our first round we had a rule in which the person who had the most Pudding cards got 6 points, the person who had the least had six points deducted off their total score in a round. In another round, we had a rule that who ever collected four special cards over three rounds would get 12 bonus points.

Upon reflection, I think this game can teach you about spending, saving, and thinking about investments. It might be a long stretch, but it requires you to have to think, What is the best way, with the least risk to get the most points.
In real life, I guess we are playing with money, stocks, shares and other investments. There’s a risk that we will lose out if we don’t have insurance or cover for a particular thing… Just like when you see a Pudding Card come around, you have to think is it worth taking one, just so that you might not be the one with the least amount of pudding cards and get six points deducted, or whether or not you take it, it will happen anyway? In life, we have also have to think and consider, should I get health insurance or car insurance, just in case something happens that I do not foresee and I suddenly have to fork out a huge amount of money? I could be winning by purchasing health insurance and actually use it when needed, or maybe I might be losing money as I never needed it…

While I was playing the game, I was quite defensive and not totally confident. My strategy was to try not get points deducted as much as possible…However, I think this is one of the reasons why I did not do so well; in retrospect. I was so focussed on not losing any points, that I actually didn’t gain any or many points. ..I think for a very big proportion of my life has been spent trying to avoid bad things from occurring… Not trying this incase it doesn’t work out, too scared to do that because what if I get hurt…Not willing to take risks on investment, incase I get scammed… I was just so worried about what might happen, that I forgot that if I focused on getting more points in the first place, those deductions would not have made such a great difference either way. Having no points at all, is like trying to survive without money in the real world…:(

Yes, its a risk to get out there and try…Why? Because you might fail. Because people might laugh at you for trying. Because may try to make you feel like you aren’t enough.

But, you know what? The jokes on them, because you took the risk, you might win big and win the game in the end. (Or you might not, but we don’t talk about that.. ) 

If you have a chance~ Go and and Play Sushi Go Party*~

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Don’t try to Fix Me

Have you ever wished that you could take away someone’s sadness…anger issues..bad habits?

Have you, despite knowing you can’t change them- gotten angry, frustrated, and upset that despite all your immense efforts and hard work – they don’t change…or they change for a bit-then they go straight back to their old habits.

Why do we do that? Why do we try change people?

Sometimes our intentions may be good ones..we just want the best for them…you can see that they are acting toxic towards themselves or others…and you think alright…just need to change them…

But, as you might have realised..it’s incredibly hard to change someone, who doesn’t want to or understand why they need to change. If the self-determination isn’t there, they won’t be able to change…They will just continue thinking what they are doing is right. Unless they can see clearly why they need to change their behaviour…telling them… yelling at them…incenticising them will only lead so far 😦

 

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Book Review: How to Write Good- Ryan Higa

Have you ever thought about what you want in life?

What is the end goal that you are working towards?

Or are you working towards nothing at this moment?

I have recently read “How to write good” By the YouTuber Ryan Higa..I am big fan of YouTubers who also write books! I love the heart to heart back stories and inspirational that you can draw from everyday people like you and I.

He mentions that as a young kid he had thought about becoming a radiologist or even a pharmacist! But then he decided that that was too hard or too boring respectively. I think he made a wise decision, rather than waste all that effort, time, and money to get to that stage of life and realise maybe it was all for nothing..if you aren’t passionate or dedicated enough to do it.

Higa says that as a high school kid, he got into wrestling and he was so passionate and dedicated to wrestling..so much so that he would run 5miles each day and go on crazy diets just to lose enough weight to compete in his weight class… before that he wasn’t driven to attend Judo or Basketball training..he hated it… because he had no interest or passion for it…How many of us do the things we do, just because we are used to it? Just because we are not great at it, but we don’t suck at it. We grow complacent and just do it because its familiar, its normal, its better than doing nothing right?

Well, as Winnie the Pooh once said, “Sometimes doing nothing can lead to the very best of something”…but in this case maybe it helps us realise what we don’t like and focus on what we might end up finding we like…

High also mentions how his love for making videos was for his own viewing pleasure and for a select few friends…back in the old days he had a family cam corder he would use to record at family events and do random videos with his neighbour hood friends… all successes started with small seemingly insignificant starts. Now look at Higa, 13 years later and one of the most successful YouTubers of all time…

Don’t hate the small starts, they are only the beginning of something more awesome…

I would like to hope starting and continuing this blog will lead me somewhere equally as awesome..maybe I will get to publish a book one day?

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Leave the world in a better place than you found it

I read this sentence a farewell letter by a leaving University President- he said “I am glad I am leaving the University in a better state that I found it in”.

I have been meditating on these words and thinking how this could apply to all of us…in every situation… a goal that we could all strive for.

Can we challenge ourselves to leave the world that we live in, in a better state than we found it?

I certainly am up to this challenge…for example, in my work places…if I see problems, hazards, bullying,  and things that I could see can be improved, I do my best to try improve/do something about it.

I wasn’t always like this though, I used to think that things get better because it was other people’s responsibility to make it better.

I taught myself from a young age that I wasn’t a leader, I was just a mere follower. I never put my hand up to be an Student Representative or on any student boards, because I didn’t care enough about others. I expected things to come handed to me on a silver platter and wanted other people to do the hard work, the rallying, the change and take action.

I’ve slowly realised, even if you see yourself as a mere follower,  you are still a leader in your own way. Whether it is your influence on family, friends or colleagues around you, you still have influence. You don’t need to be the president of the United States of America or head of the student council to be someone that people want to follow.
Even when you train up a new employee or help someone, you are showing love, leadership and leading by example.  You can change the world in all different ways, whether its by recycling, finding ways to use solar power, saving water or cleaning up the environment…we can all do our bit, small and large. ..

I think I have gone slightly off tangent… BUT I hope you will join me in this journey of life, to not make it a selfish one, but one where we can leave this world in a slightly better place than we found it. 

50 Shades of Grey… thinking

Sometimes we tell ourselves things have to be a certain way or we won’t be and can’t be happy. People with OCD will understand what I mean…

This is an extremely unhealthy and unproductive way to think.

We tell ourselves things like,  “If only I get that job or promotion, then I will be happy” , “If only that girl/guy liked me then I could be happy“…If only …[insert desire thing here]…then I would be happy…:(

How long is your “happy” feeling going to last anyway?

We are basically just setting ourselves up for failure…with the thinking that we wont ever be “happy” until something we desire happens…Does that mean we are just going to be “unhappy” until we get that thing?

Why do people desire this temporary feeling of happiness? It is such a fleeting, fickle moment in time that simmers down and disappears in a matter of hours, days or maybe if we are lucky weeks.

As I think they say in physics, that if something goes up, then it must also come down.

After we get desired happiness, we are at a limbo…are we happy now? Are we content? Probably not…you probably already found something else to crave for/desire…

Having black and white thinking about our dreams, goals and ambitions is not a good thing..instead we should thinking of them as shades of grays.

Yes, it is good to have these dreams, goals and ambitions, but we shouldn’t let these things determine whether we are happy people. How about we aim for that goal, but if we don’t reach it we can still be content that we are not where we used to be?

Just because that job that you got didn’t turn out to be what you thought it would be, the relationship that you were so sure would end in marriage; ended breaking up, even if you took an entrance exam three times and failed every time…. it doesn’t mean that you failed… it doesn’t mean you cannot be happy now. 

Hey, be content. You have not reached your destination yet, but why not enjoy the journey? Who knows, you may even find a different path that is even greater than the one you had pictured for yourself.  Things don’t have to be black and white, they can be grey. Be kind to yourself,  give yourself permission to be happy now…enjoy the journey, because this journey is life long.

Happiness doesn’t fall upon you. It’s something that you actively have to choose to be, strive for, and work for. It is being aware that everything isn’t great now, but that you can be still content with where you are and know that you are going somewhere among the storm we call life. 

Try live life with a bit of grey in it.

Kid vs Adult mindsets

I’ve been reflecting upon the difference in thinking of when I was child and in comparison to now (I was about to say when I was an adult…–..–“)

I am going to put my thoughts on what a kid Joy might have thought and what an adult Joy might think.

On finding their ideal partner:

KID : I want to fall in love with a tall, handsome, rich blonde eye blue eye man with a six pack. He will also have a golden retriever and possibly be a prince.

ADULT: I just want to find someone who will accept me for who I am and how I look and act. That accepts the way I look like slob that I am at home and when I have no make up on…

On Beauty:

KID : I wanna look like an adult…I wanna make my skin super white and cover up every blemish..! I wanna do eyeliner to make me look older…fake lashes..permed hair and red lipstick..high heels…

ADULT: OH GAWD I need to buy this expensive as MAC primer, blue and BB cream to make my face look like it has no make up…! Actually, stuff this…rather just be insecure about myself, how about I just learn to love and accept myself for who I am and stop wanting an ideal version of me that I will never assatain?

On Fast FOOD:

KID : Mum said I can have Maccas if I don’t cry when I get my flu vaccination! I can’t wait..it’s sooo rare we get maccas! I am so excited. Filet-o-fish here we come!!

ADULT: OH GAWD this is the 3rd time I’ve been to maccas this week..! #$#$ I wish I had time to eat better food..?!?! Why does maccas have to be the closest restaurant to work?!?! Time to diet T_T

On Doggos:

KID : OMG I WANT A DOG PLZ CAN I HAVE A DOG PLZ . I promise to take it on walks everyday and pick up all its sheet!

ADULT: OMG I want a dog. BUT I don’t have the time to look after the dog at the moment. I want to be a responsible dog owner. T_T

On cars:

KID : I CAN’T WAIT TILL I TURN 16 and get my Ls! OMG I can finally drive! I am going to go out everyday and party! Finally I will be come a social butterfly and be the most popular girl in my friendship group! I am going to pick up all my friends in my mums car..ohohoho

ADULT: FML . I don’t wanna drive in this #$#$ heavy peak hour traffic. SIGH why didn’t I catch a bus? Why can’t someone drive me? Why do I have to pick up ______ again? DAMMIT this car… OH SHEET petrol is so expensive again..FML this car is so expensive to maintain…OH WAIT rego is due again..there goes another $760…and oh no service next month..$400++ oh sigh. Why is it so expensive to keep a car? I rather a dog instead. lols. woof.

On shopping:

KID : NOOooo I don’t wanna go shopping with you mum its soo boring…@@

ADULT: Oh gawd…I can’t stop buying things on eBay.com and amazon…HOW DID I SPEND SO MUCH MONEY?!?!?!

On SLEEP:

KID : NOoooooo I don’t wanna sleep! Its only 9pm!!!!!!! I wanna stay up and read my book…I wanna talk with my friends..I wanna…eat….

ADULT: I am so sleep deprived. I just want a day to do nothing but sleep.
FML I only get 5 hours of sleep if I sleep straight away..! SIGH why do I have to get up so early for work everyday. I am so tired…all the time..I am addicted to caffeine.

and last but not least…

On Work/dreams:

KID : I can’t WAIT TO GET A JOB and earn money! Then I won’t have to rely on the merger amount of money that I get free from my parents! I CAN’T WAIT TO BECOME AN ADULT…

ADULT: FML . I wanna quit my job. it’s too stressful, it wasn’t what I imagined it would be, the other staff are bullies, the pay sucks, the patients suck, my hours suck, my life sucks. I am depressed. OH GOD I NEED A HOLIDAY. STAT. Why does working life suck so much? Why does being an adult suck so much …can I be a kid again?

OH lol this isn’t all true! Just for lols…hahah I was just thinking…about how much we change huh? If we think about who we used to be as kids and who we are now, would we tell ourselves? It’s like we are two completely different people that have existed.

Is there anything that you’ve noticed that has changed in your perception of life from when you were a kid and has changed now that you are an adult? If you want to, please leave your comments on those things below!

Take care,

Joy to the World~

 

Time to get that 5.3 hours 13 minutes and 2 seconds of sleep….

Living the simple life

I think as we grow older…we get simpler..when we were young our dreams are so specific, unrealistic and most likely to cause more harm than good…

Being an immature kid, I would dream to be something that I was passionate about. I loved comics, writing fan fiction and drawing.. I was obviously going to be a manga-artist when I grew up! That was my ideal dream..doing something that I actually liked and enjoyed..that is the life… at least that’s what I thought would be the ideal life back then.

But as I went through school…I learnt that things for artists weren’t so great..it would be hard…you would be stressed..you would be pressed upon both sides…the article about the suicide of the hard working anime creators in Japan who overworked themselves to death…I just wanted to take what seemed to be the easy way in life…do what will give you a job and not what you love. With that mindset I dropped out of graphic design half a year in..not sure what step I should do next..I went to my second love, languages…in particular..Japanese language.

Then the doubts and my family around me told me, it will be hard to be a Japanese teacher if you aren’t even Japanese! You won’t be enough, you will never be enough.. //Cue Loren Allred- “Never Enough song” Here// ..with my doubts and the negativity weighing upon my shoulders..I decided to play it safe – to do a course I didn’t really want to do …but in the hopes it would get me a good job and a stable income …I did it..and I stuck with it…because at that time my Grandma (now passed on RIP), just told me…just do anything…it might not be what you want to be in the end..but just finish something! just complete at least one degree…under your belt…and I THINK then you can do anything.. Something like that.. well that’s how I interpreted it.

 

My grandma sadly passed away while I was doing my pharmacy degree..the day before a test ..actually.. Sometimes I am not sure if I want to thank her or resent her for me sticking with Pharmacy. I hated working in pharmacy…studying it was okay…and interesting..but in the real world..I hated it.. I loathed it. It made me depressed. It made me question my life choices and I was scared that I was trapped into something for life.

I forgot, that one decision that you made doesn’t shape and path the way for the rest of your life. Maybe it was that way in the past, but right now, in this age..we are given choices. We are given options…yes it may be hard, yes it won’t happen when you want it to and in the way you want it to. But I really do believe that if you choose to change your path, no matter how small or big from the one that you currently hate…you will head closer and closer to where you want to go. //insert a acute triangle here//

If you choose to stay on the same path…all you will do is keep complaining, keep dreading each day and keep wondering if it could be something else…is there more to life? //cue that song that goes “There’s gotta be more to life…dundundundun…more to life” // . Where was I again? You just got to take that first step, then the second and just keep going…I can’t promise you that it will be easy, But I can promise you that it will scary, exciting and it will lead you to where you want to go. If it wasn’t the right path, remember you can change again. No one said it was A to B. but it could be A to Z to W to X to F to J to O to Y to B. See what I did there? No one’s path is the same…so you don’t need to compare the path you are taking to the one those around you are.

You are you.

This is more so a message for myself than for anyone else. I am still trying to get to B, I am not where I want to be ..but thank God I am not where I used to be..

Peace and … J o y to the You ….<3.