Experience?

I woke up today and I was working on writing a job application for a senior pharmacist position…and as I was thinking of all the different pharmacies I have worked and all the different roles I have had…and realised I am an experienced pharmacist…even though I don’t think I am… I have achieved much and experienced much… I don’t know everything, but I know something.

Applying for jobs is about selling yourself, your knowledge, and your experiences. Some talent in writing is needed here…you want to make it seem like you have done more and learnt more than you probably have…if you undersell yourself, you won’t even get a chance to progress from paper to in-person interview.  That reminds me, I have another interview this coming week… It is part of the same company I am currently in..but a different branch…further away from my house… but hey, stability in finances comes with a cost. I love my job now, but having short contracts constantly and not knowing if I have a job next year is scary…and I need to do my best to grab whatever opportunities there are… Otherwise, I won’t be able to save up for my house :(.

I feel really lucky now…Even though at times it’s frustrating…scary… tiring.. and exhausting. I think there will come a time where I will look back, and say I can’t believe I made it that far…by working so hard! You reap what you sow and if you worked hard…your efforts will pay off.

Going to a house inspection later today…I finally have a day off! So I might as well use my time wisely.

In other news, yesterday I heard from a colleague that another colleague had suddenly passed away..No one knows why. They were young. Lot’s of potential and a funny person. They will surely be missed. But it reminded me greatly about the uncertainty of life and the experiences we have interacting with each other…If you treat someone badly, and then they pass away, there is no opportunity to say sorry or to forgive them.

So think again, do you want to live a life of regret? Treat people the best that you can.

I honestly rather that people treat me bad, then I treat someone bad.

On Work Ethics

Disclaimer: I am no model employee, but I do make some observations while at the workplace

I’ve worked in a fair few workplaces over the years…while at University and after graduating.

I observe there are a few types of people out there.and to put them into three super broad categories.

  1. Some who genuinely seem to love their job and gives it their best (rare) 
  2. Those who may not love their job, but still gives it their best (also not that common) 
  3. Those who clearly hate their job and do NOT do their best and clearly don’t care less about their job…but most likely they have been in the job so long that they won’t get fired.

 

  1. Some who genuinely seem to love their job and gives it their best 

Haven’t met so many of these…but they do exist! These types of people are great to work with…they teach you so much, they make work fun and you can tell they like coming to work. They exuberant positive energy and bring kindness wherever they go. They seek to make lives better for other people…whether that’s by being friendly, kind and possibly bringing snacks to share with others to work. I used to try to aim to be this type of person, but I think I’ve started to burn out/wear out over time with dealing with difficult colleagues.

 

2. Those who may not love their job, but still gives it their best  

I would classify myself as this. I don’t hate my job (most of the time), but I do believe I should give it my best…because at the end of the day…they are paying me to be there. They are paying me for my time!~ I don’t want to get fired or set bad examples for other people to follow. I try to get to work early, be organised and try to make sure I leave the workplace in a neat orderly state for whoever is there tomorrow. I think most people fit into this category…

 

3. Those who clearly hate their job and do NOT do their best and clearly don’t care less about their job…but most likely they have been in the job so long that they won’t get fired.

Aside from the bullies, these group of people are the hardest for me to work with. They exuberant negative energy that makes it clear that they don’t want to be there. They arrive late and have a tirade of excuses and reasons why they are late…Usually it is different excuses, but sometimes they get creative. They clearly don’t care about their job and do only the bare minimum to get by. They are not productive at work, they look at the time and only start working at the set time (if they are even there on time). They make people in groups 1 and 2 exasperated because of their lack of willingness to work hard…and it’s tiring being around these people. You know they don’t want to be there, so why are you here? No one is forcing you. Go do something you want to do, or at least do something to make your way there…

 

What type are you? What type would you like to be?

Learning to let people down

Letting people down can be extremely hard for those with low self-confidence…this is my story

Continuing in the same mindset as my last post…I want to reiterate the fact that kindness is not a weakness…it is something that makes the world go round …but it comes to a point that..,you have to decide..that you have had enough. And it is time to stop people walking all over you. Whether you speak up in words, actions or in plans…just step up. 

 

Essentially we have to let people down. Because if we always say yes. Then of course they will continue to walk all over you, why? because you are basically grovelling at their feet.

 

I hate it when people say the words, “But XXX always does it this”. Well, la-di-da that;s them and I am me. I do things my way.

At the work place I do some locus work for, the clients are so used to getting a chewing gum after each dose that they receive… this chewing gum is not provided by the clinic but is something the normal pharmacist provides out of her own pocket. She is awesome right? But when she goes on leave for 3 weeks, does that mean I have to also follow her actions and buy gum for her? She was spoiling them….she would have had to go through at least 3 packets of gums/DAY for all their clients and their kids…

I know the pharmacist there always said yes to everything the nurses and doctors asked of her..even when she had shut down the computer and locked everything away…but is that what I have to do?

Well, to be honest I did…I did it for how many weeks, months ? at the other locations..I would stat well over 2 hours past the time I got paid to..

Then I remember a friend saying, when they do over time..without getting paid…it is like slavery.. modern day slavery…or volunteer work. I don’t understand how people, who know that you finish at 12…you stopped getting paid at 12…expect you to stick around…just so that they have less work to do…they don’t even ask if you are leaving…they present to you new clients at 12:15 and expect you to dose them..? Really?

Will you pay me out of your own pocket?

I am not trying to sound ungrateful or not be a team player. I just don’t understand how someone can make me feel so bad for actually leaving on time (even 10 minutes after finish time)…for the first time in forever?

Why did you make me feel so guilty and act like that? I am sorry if you didn’t tell me to prepare a late dose…am I supposed to wait around until things happen and then I get to leave? After12, it is your responsibility  to dose…you know the times…just coz the previous pharmacist was too nice and lenient..doesn’t mean I have to be ..

 

Anyways, awkwardly I left. Glad that I am not planning to go back soon. I drive 1.5 hours a day to get there for a lousy three hour shift. It is so freaking hot these days too. I am grateful that I get to meet up a good friend from uni there for lunch every now and then…I am also able to visit the Elizabeth crew there as well…the shopping is great. But if you asked me to cover there again, no thank you. In terms of my own mental health, drowsiness from the drive and waste of petrol..and work place issues..no thank you. I am good.

I am finally deciding for myself that I can no longer do seven days a week on end. I am just so tired…headaches ..migraines…why try chase more money?

To be honest, the more money I seem to earn./..the more I spend and hence this viscous cycle…I am going to earn less next month, but save more…I will have to budget better, eat at home more , meal prep and think about what I spend my money on more carefully. Because I really can’t afford to collapse or crash my car out of tiredness and lethargy.

I know I push myself too far..and too much…I hate letting people down..it just eats away my soul…and bothers me so much I have to blog about it!

but, I have to start somewhere and today I let down that nurse and that doctor, and yes they may hate me. but, I hope they also learn to respect that my time is valuable as well and that I am not just someone to be trampled and walked on.

Just gotta learn that we will let people down…

Have a Jolly Joy-some day~

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