Mundane Everyday Life

Been on leave since last Friday (which was basically a sick day). But, yeah everyday is filled with boredom… groceries, cleaning, sleeping, eating, repeat. The only thing I did that was out of ordinary was that I joined the local Library and borrowed some books lol… that just reminds me.. I should really wipe the books ?!?!? Who knows what is on them..

Life sucks when you are stressed to the point of burn out, life also sucks when you have nothing to do and you can’t travel as of yet. Friday will be the first day that the 25km restrictions get lifted and we can finally travel around.

So today was another boring day, where I woke up later than I normally would. Went to the dentist and got a clean, and my mouth just takes disgusting from all the Fluoride… eww.. makes me so nauseous and want to vomit. I was waiting around at the nearby shopping centre until my next appointment, the nutritionist… 😌…. a day full of appointments… some leave.. just doing things I couldn’t normally do coz I am working. I will say today, I did buy some random matcha icecream (or so they said) and it tasted disgusting .. I tried to put it to the fluoride.. and you know what happened next? I found a short pubic hair in the icecream so gross. i really wanted to vomit so badly then!!

This was my boring tale of life in lockdown restrictions… having leave but nothing to do and no where to go.

Let’s hope my next post is about what I do with the remaining annual leave with lifted lockdown restrictions. ☺️

First time getting Covid Swabbed

So, I’ve been bed ridden and house bound for the last few days. Yesterday, I was finally feeling well enough to get out of bed and get myself Covid tested. Given the circumstances we are currently in in Melbourne with cases literally popping up everywhere and anywhere, I thought it would be better to be safe than sorry.

I decided to opt for the drive through testing clinic nearby my house. No referral or booking was needed before hand. I went pretty early in the morning in the hopes to avoid the long waiting times.

It wasn’t as bad as I thought, it took about 30 minutes from start to finish. There was many questions asked, “have you been interstate? Overseas? In close contact with someone who has covid? Etc etc” and I answered literally no to all of them..they also ask if you have been immunised and if you were a health care worker, which I said yes to both.

The swab itself, wasn’t painful but I wouldn’t say its pleasant either. They first swabbed the back of my throat then each nostril with the SAME SWAB. Not sure if that’s that they normally do? I was just thinking of all the cross contamination with particles from my mouth going to my nose?!?!?

After the test i had to drink water to try get rid of that gross sensation in the nose and throat.

I clicked on the link about what to do post testing and it said I had to quarantine until I got s negative result and that it would take 1-2 days before I got results! Sounded pretty slow to me, but I was sick anyways.

I got the results about 14 hours after getting tested, the results were sent as a text message to me at approximately 11pm at night.

Hurray for a negative result! But sadly, I am still sick. 😦 but at least it’s not covid ?

Lock down lifting

Soooo restrictions are easy across metropolitan Melbourne since yesterday morning. But, I really honestly didn’t feel impact from it. I was home all day yesterday, bed ridden from a sudden wave of sickness. I reckon it had to be the sudden new working hours of the dreaded “Late Shift” week that I had. 11:30am-20:00 pm … so cold, and so dark when I finally finished working….

I fought the sickness for 2 days before succumbing to it and finally breaking down. There was no more juice, a full migraine broke out on top of the background sickness of congestion, cough, sore throat, and hot and cold chills. I actually planned to get covid swabbed, but was feeling way too sick to do so.

Life always has it’s ways of saying to you, it’s time to rest. Like, really! Stop pushing yourself and get well soon.

P.S. i am on annual leave from today, unfortunately I had to cancel my flights to Adelaide as Adelaide has closed its borders to me and I am unable to return home at this stage =\/(

Things I’ve done in Lockdown

During the lockdown, I saw other people start to bake, cook, or go on exercise hikes… for me I haven’t done much out of the ordinary…

1. I’ve continued working as usual, but put my hands up for some extra activities.

2. Got more unfit, but have been trying to get into home stretching and exercises.

3. Been studying up on Covid-19 and their vaccines as I have out my hand up to be interested in being involved with the vaccine preparation.

4. I’ve restarted posting in here.

When will this lockdown end? Who knows?

Melbourne Lockdown 4.0

What can I say? We are pretty used to it now..LOCKDOWN

1. Roll out and clean the dusty yoga mat…it’s time for some YouTube work outd.

2. Stock up on essentials like toilet papers, frozen foods, snacks, and caffeine.

3. Start calling your family and catching up with friends online.

4. Start shopping online again because shops are closed.

5. Start typing into the blogs and online ventures once again.

6. Get really bored and find some interesting new hobby or side hustle to do.

7. Consider buying a pet or alternatively a plant.

8. Consider investing in more lounge wear as you spend so much time at home in your PJs.

9. Wallow in self pity for a while because you can’t travel.

10. Follow the news like a hawk to see what is happening with the lockdown and how many nee cases are there today?!?!?!?

Repeat all of the above again and again.

The daily grind

Not sure if it’s the grey cold weather, the workload, the long hours, the extra things I do after work and on my weekends.

But these days, I feel like I am struggling. Struggling to have the energy to do anything.. the excitement in life is just waning. Perhaps its because I came back from having one week off for the first time since I started this new job in August 2020.

Perhaps it maybe also because I’ve been self weaning off my medicines that keep depression and anxiety away, and now… With that in my background, life just seems so much harder. So much sadder.

But this too will past, won’t? I am not even sure why I feel so sad, why so down, why so anxious… maybe I just didn’t pay attention to it. Maybe, it’s because when something good goes away… then you realise how nice it was and the life before was so bleak.

Sometimes people add colour, rainbows, variety to the mundane life and once they go away. It’s hard, so hard to get used to that boring life again.

But overtime, you will forget, forget those sunny days. To see a rainbow, you do require rain aswell as sun.

Shower thoughts #1

If you saw someone talking to themselves when no one is around, normally you would think they are a crazy, Psychotic, schizophrenic, delirious person.

However… thanks to the creation of podcasts, phones, and the internet.

Now you can talk to yourself all you want and no one will think you are crazy 🤪🤪😌😌.

Check out my podcast, link below.

Accrued Day Off

I get stressed when I have a day off during the week.. it’s like.. oh crap I gotta make sure ok the day, I plan stuff to do.. to make the best of the day off. On the day before my day off, I also gotta make sure my work is finished and any things outstanding are followed up to the best of my ability…

It’s less added stress when you have those aDOs coz you’ve worked way more than you were supposed to🤣🤣. Catch 22.???

That makes me worried about the week off I booked for the first week of May, this would be my first week off since August last year. Exciting! Also, strange. Very strange. The only plans so farI have is that I am heading to Sydney to visit a friend for a few days, gotta get that car serviced, work on my project, AND a maybe trip to see the penguins in Phillip Island. I am thinking whether or not I should go book an appointment with a nutritionist… I just feel forever tired and I know my diet is not the best :(. As I am forever fatigued and breaking out in pimples😭

Catch 22 – Research Projects

When you start investigating and looking into doing research, unfortunately you will affect the circumstances that you are in.

Research has not been my strong point or forte unfortunately… I just get overwhelmed, bored, and tired of doing research. Unfortunately, as part of my residency position, I will have to complete a research project. Coming up with a project hasn’t been that difficult, but implementation and designing. Holy shit. So hard..🥲🥲🥲it’s almost been a year, yet I still haven’t been able to even start my project yet. Getting ethics has been a major road block… there are so many hurdles to jump through even before I can even go through to ethics… As a resident, my project has to go through the Education committee before going to the Research Committee, and then finally after they all disseminate my Research Expression of Interest.. then can finally go to the Ethics Committee 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 just too hard if you ask me.

It sucks now.. the waiting game before starting the Research.. but I suppose in a years time… maybe I will be pretty happy with where I have ended up? Perhaps I would have finished/close to finishing my research project..

WHO KNOWS

Am I going to make a difference in the world? Maybe not?

I love my project… yet I also hate it with passion. How I long to be a normal employee without all the additional responsibilities, research, and expectations… Yet, I know this is a stepping stone for something greater. Something better. Who knows

Day 2 Post Pfizer Covid Vaccine

It’s been about 36 hours after I received my first dose of the Pfizer Covid Vaccine. I have to say, I felt fine right after it.. no anaphylaxis, no pain, all was well. But progressively through out the day, the pain in my left arm (where I got it done), became more and more noticeable. Throughout the day, I began feeling more tired than usual and I was getting some difficulties breathing/coughing. I mean, I do have to say I have asthma and Hayfever, but I am not sure if it was due to the vaccine.. but I did notice this.

12 hours post vaccine I was noticing I was incredibly sleepy, tired, and fatigued, but at night I had RSVP’ed to badminton so I forced myself to go exercise, but the pain in my left arm was intense. I got home and couldn’t do much more, everything felt so hard and difficult to do.

I eventually got ready for bed, and that’s when I noticed the pain of my left arm, I could not sleep on my left side at all due to the pain

24 hours post vaccination, I woke up with a massive headache, almost like I was hungover or something… the whole body lethargic feeling was incredibly strong. I contemplated whether or not I should go to work, I was worried about falling asleep at the wheel or making mistakes at work. I decided i would call in sick and also let them know I had just received my first dose of the covid vaccine.

I was given an informational leaflet by the vaccination staff which had a QR code in which I could record side effects from the vaccine. I recorded exactly what I have just typed out above and also stated what treatments I have used to help with the symptoms.

After resting in bed for most of the day, I am feeling slightly better. I am taking 2x paracetamol regularly to help with the pain, body aches, and fevers. I am trying to keep very hydrated and to eat healthy.

Fingers crossed the worst is over! I have been told if my symptoms persist till tomorrow, I may need a covid swab to ensure I haven’t been exposed to the virus…

Freedom

Freedom again.. so we finished our five day lock down on Thursday as promised by our prime minister. The taste of freedom is both exhilarating and also feels foreign, almost wrong… going in and out of lockdowns makes you feel on the edge… when will the next one be? Do you enjoy your freedom now and pay the consequences later? What if you go to a hotspot accidentally?

The constant anxiety of not knowing is both scary and yet exciting times to be in.

I wish I could be part of the Covid Vaccination team… but I am not sure.. I am still undergoing my residency training now and I am not sure how it would work..

I am glad that a vaccine is out, I wonder how the world is going to look like once we are vaccinated. Is social distancing here to stay?

Melbourne lockdown #3

Yesterday afternoon, we were all told that at midnight the entire state of Victoria will be plunged back to a Stage Four lockdown for five days. This was in response to another leak of Coronavirus from someone in Hotel Quarantine.. if they know that these returned travellers are at a high risk of having Covid-19, why aren’t the rooms better ventilated? In this case, the returned traveller had asthma and was using a nebuliser to help him breathe… It was well known since the first lockdown that all nebulisers in hospital were strongly discouraged due to the risk of droplets of covid being spread. Instead, using the puffer was recommended to be used through a spacer instead.

Obviously, you do the obvious.. you go out and enjoy the last few hours of freedom. The freedom of not having to wear a mask outside, being able to dine in restaurants, being able to play badminton and going shopping… I did what I miss most, playing badminton with friends ☺️

It’s bittersweet and a little depressing to go from almost normal back to being in lockdown. I am just hoping and praying it will only be for five days and that we can go back to “normal”.

The rules that are in place until Midnight on Wednesday the 17th of Feb:

We can only leave work for four essential reasons:

1. Work/Study that can’t be done from home.

2. Caring for someone or getting medical attention.

3. Essential shopping for groceries/pharmacy/etc.

4. 2 hours of exercise a day.

Other rules come back, non-essential retail stores must be closed. Masks must be worn at all times except for strenuous exercise or if they have a medical condition.

We also cannot travel more than 5km to go shopping for groceries, unless the nearest shop is more than 5km away.

No visitors are allowed to your home, unless it’s your intimate partner.

All indoors/outdoor sports are not allowed, unless you are an professional.

I am not sure if there is a ‘curfew’ like last time, but there isn’t much to do anyways.

Also, there are no visitors allowed in Hospital or Nursing homes unless in special circumstances.

Fingers crossed Melbourne 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Happy Chinese New Year!

I write this on the first day of the New Year… for the first time I have moved out from home and have not celebrated Lunar New Year dinner with my family. I realise that there are so many traditions that my mother kept and just did and I just took it for granted.

Living alone meant that many of these traditions were only made known to me when people asked me at work if I celebrated..

It’s sad to know that traditions aren’t held so highly with me, as the first child of a migrant, will I in the future keep my culture alive if ai ever had children? Or do I make my own culture?

Being Environmentally friendly to your money

I was having this thought and discussion this week…about how being environmentally friendly can lead to you saving money in the long run.

It may seems costly at first to invest in environmentally friendly products, but in the long run it can save you money as-well as help save the planet.

For example, instead using disposable forks and knives at restaurants/takeaways, how about bringing your own travel utensils kit?

Then there’s reusable drink bottles that can be refilled time and time again. Everyone also knows about the metal straws, which are also resistant to heat.

Food wraps made from beewax are costly to buy at first but think of the money saved from using disposable clingwrap.

Having reusable calico or strong bags for shopping, so you don’t have to pay for a plastic or paper bag. They also tend to be stronger , more durable and versatile, and bonus some have cute patterns!

Solar panels! Expensive upfront costs, but over time they help power your house and also can earn you money when you produce more electricity than you can use, so it goes into the grid.

Water tanks!!! Most people have water tanks in their gardens (if they have one). It is great for watering plants, cleaning cars, or to be used for flushing toilets in the home. Save money on water! Why not?

Riding a bike for short distances. This equals exercise AND transportation, as well as being fun for some people.

This is all I can think of for now, but I think you get the picture, but being environmentally friendly, you can also satisfy that stingy, money saving person in you 🤣

Do you just become sick or do you make yourself sick?

Do we just suddenly fall sick for no reason or are we the ones treating our bodies so bad that it forces us to take much needed rest?

I think I know the answer… I think I sip my ice old glass of soy milk because my coffee is too hot and I already have several mouth ulcers in my mouth.

My blood tests all came back “normal”, nothing out of the ordinary, no infection, not low in vitamin D, iron, or vitamin b12. My blood pressure standing and sitting were “fine”, but I still feel dizzy when walking around. I still feel tired and so fatigued that my mind becomes blank and I barely can make the drive to work without falling asleep. Burn out is real and your body will let you know it has had ENOUGH. You need rest it says…

If you are constantly worrying about work or thinking things will crumble if you aren’t there, then I feel you are overestimating the abilities of other people. If you are always doing everything, then how will people ever learn how to do something? So the cycle continues, because that’s how you learnt in the first place right? When you were thrown into the deep end, it’s either you sink to the bottom or you force yourself to learn to swim.

But you swim too hard, too fast, and you tire out. You forget that you aren’t in some olympic 100m swim race, you are in a marathon called ‘Life’. It’s time to pace yourself, know your limits and know how to love yourself, (that’s a post for another time).