It occurred to me the other day, that humans are very similar to robots. Push this button, they will do something, show a light and they will move, show a different one they will stop. We obey signs that tell us how fast we can drive, to watch out for ducks, or to give way to other cars…without all these signs everywhere, life would supposedly be chaos.
I remember when I was visiting my mother’s rural town in China…They had no traffic lights back then…it was just go-in an hope for the best… I remember seeing a poor mans cart of fruits topple over…in the middle of the street…amongst people that just continued moving on with their lives…I remember how sad I felt at that time..I felt so sorry for him…yet I was on my uncle’s scooter riding in the opposite direction.
Do you ever feel like you ought to do something…but you really don’t want to…so you don’t…but then someone else does it…and you feel super guilty for not offering to do it?
I am guilty as charged.. That’s how I felt the other day…So there was a farewell party at work for someone who was leaving…and before I went downstairs with a colleague, we passed another colleague who was on meal monitoring duty… As I passed by, I told her about the party downstairs..and she said she might head down there since she was finishing soon…it crossed my mind that I should offer to take over her monitoring since I was scheduled to finish later than her…but at the same time I was like…but I really don’t want to and I want to get to that farewell…and I turned to leave…but then my other colleague who was going downstairs with me…turned and asked her if she wanted us to relieve her.. I felt major guilt..I did not do what my instincts had said was the right thing to do.
I don’t know even how my rant got to here..
Anyways, on a side note..I have began the great Kondo style declutter of my room ! I should have taken before and after photos… but honestly I hide all my stuff in closets and boxes. But the damage so far is five full garbage bags of clothes donated to charity…They were new and nice clothes I Donated..not crappy old ones..it’s a bit hard parting with it…but if I am not going to wear it, isn’t it better to go with someone else who will appreciate it more??
More on this decluttering topic later.. I have learnt a lot of things just from cleaning my room! Marie Kondo sure is onto something. I’ve started reading her book and am 3 quarters way through…its an amazing book- highly recommend!