Dichotomy of the hospital

I went from one spectrum of the hospital where everything was timely, urgent, and dangerous. I had patients dying and there was the constant anxiety that a patient could turn dangerous at any moment. Another MetCall, another Code blue, the ICU team come running. Is if my patient? Will they be okay? Patient’s are fighting for their lives, fighting for survival. We undertake surgery and give them dangerous medicines in order to make sure they are fine.

In the other end of the hospital, in stark contrast to what’s happening. The patients want to die, they do not to live, they refuse to take medicines to help them, they refuse to listen to anyone. They are a threat to themselves and to the staff. They would rather die than stay in the hospital for another day. Code grey-the security come running… a patient is aggressive and needs to be restrained…again.

In one hospital. There is the fight for life and also the fight for death.

Waiting for lasik now

Super super nervous.. omg.. took some relaxants and sleeping tablets that were offered to me.. i think I will be knocked out post surgery… Then begins the nightly process of a trio of eyes drops, lubricants, antibiotics, and a steroid. They also are giving some pain relief meds.. to really really knock me out if needed.. hopefully will “see” you on the other side clearly.