Love-Hate Relationship with Caffeine

I couldn’t sleep yesterday night…not sure if it was because I ate some pizza with cheese (and being lactose-intolerant) or if it was because I drank a matcha latte drink at night.

My tolerance for caffeine has been really really low lately! Without the early starts in the morning for work I rarely drink a cup of tea any more…usually drinking tea at night is fine for me…but I was super hyped up and full of energy until 2am at night… I stayed up reading Webtoons as I was too alert…yet also anxious because I need to work tomorrow..! The more I tried telling myself I need to go to sleep NOW…the more alert and anxious I became..sigh

Woke up groggy in the morning…with a bit of headache… I made a cup of coffee to prepare me for the long drive to work..Don’t want to fall asleep especially on the expressway and PLUS it’s raining.

Why does caffeine both make me tired and then make me alert? I am so addicted and so dependent on it… 😦

My stomach hurts..not sure if its from the coffee or from the pizza from last night.. 😦

Caffeine is both friend AND foe.

Work Addicted

I just spent like almost an hour researching something for someone I don’t know in another town, which has nothing to do with me and this is after I have had dinner and am at home. I think I have a problem switching off work.

I work in a mental health hospital dispensary, yet I get phone calls from around South Australia from people asking for advice about psychotropic medications. I would just like to clarify I am not a medication expert hot line, there are people who are paid simply to answer these medication information questions.

Yes, I might know a bit more about antipsychotics and other psychotropic medications than some pharmacists, but I am by no way close to a specialist of any kind in mental health.

When asked a question I don’t know, I get obsessed with trying to finding the answer and unfortunately there isn’t an answer as it was with this case.

I’ve just come off from 3 days of being on-call and being asked all sorts of questions that put me outside my comfort zone and made me think on my feet… So I guess an email about a question relating to long-acting anti-psychotics didn’t seem too bad at first. But unfortunately, I am not paid to just answer people’s questions all day and hence, I did it at home…not good, but at least I learnt a ton lot about antipyschotics!! Too bad it’s my last week at this mental health hospital.

Sometimes I wonder why I try so hard…

*lifts up glass of milk*. Cheers to new chapters.